tiring dae...

well 2dae was really tiring...we had dance practice at 9 in the morning...at Republic Poly...OMFG!!! im like a bloody zombie seh...


niwae, we still reach late...ard 9.30...hehehe...biaser...star karat abis!!! so there was me, Q, ifah, ayun, izhan, aishah, jojo, ayis, G & sep...we did stretching 1st...OMFG!!! i can just die from the bloody session...but overall, it was really kinda of fun lah...hehehe...

we left two or three more songs to complete...den we r totally done...hehehe...kinda of excited for suntec dance...but at the same time, gonna b tired lah...it was one hell of a tiring dance practice ah...urgh!!!


aft tat we went back to tamp...i wanted to dye & cut my hair...did tat...overall, it turned out ok2 ah...gonna miss my long, messy hair...had fun ah...


before...

after...

haiz...gonna miss my hair...

overall, tis week has kinda of been rather peaceful for me...eventhou im trying my best to re-adjust myself...i so miss those idiots...

mondae ~ went back to camp...cleared my stuffs & everything...i had an emotional moment...cant believe it but yupz...haiz...& tat idiot was on leave! i was really looking forward...bcoz he promised me a french kiss on my last dae...i was kinda of sad ah...den aft tat, meet up wit Q, ifah & ayun...lepak wit them for awhile...
tuesdae ~ stayed at hm the whole dae till izhan call & forced me to meet up wit him...me, Q, izhan, nathra & aishah...gi lepak kat tamp cc as usual...
wednesdae ~ i 4got wat happen on wednesdae lah...oh ya, meet up ayun aft werk...me, Q & him...had supper at mac...check my pay & all i fucking received was a pathetic $79.80...i was like so totally scratch my ass off...
thursdae ~ meet up wit Q psl nak gi overnite & drinking...me, izhan, Q, jojo & ayis...went to punggol end...i was the 1st to get high...& was crying like a crazy bitch!!! y? bcoz of tat idiot lah...im always crying bcoz of him lah...jojo was really2 nice to comfort me...haiz...ayis was fucking nuts!!! hehehe...it was a miracle tat i went hm ok...padahal i got a splitting head-ache...HAPPY 42ND BDAE SINGAPORE!!!
fridae ~ met up wit keith to collect our ICs...dah ORD oh!!! OMFG!!! my IC pic is like fucking ugly lah kn...ewwww!!! it scared the shit out of me...hahaha...aft tat meet up wit ayun...den went back hm...mlm, lepak wit Q...
saturdae ~ dance pract & cut my hair...dah...

oh ya, im kinda of freaking out bout yan...i dunnoe y...i feel so fucking shy...i hav a strong feeling tat itz gonna b those cases where i will b crying like a crazy hyena...so darlings, plz prepare urself if im gonna start crying like a crazy biatch...

& i seriously tink tat im falling for yan lah...i cant seem to get his fucking cute smile out of my mind...well, i still cant get tat idiot out of my mind...hehehe...

nitey-nite...

this is how im feeling right now...

'Cry' by Rihanna

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...


the song totally explains how i'm feeling right now towards you...
i don't know why i love you so much...
i feel stupid...