My 600th entry...
I'm not sure that people are changing or I am changing. Things just feels different nowadays. It doesn't feel the same way as it used to be. I'm not sure if it's me just being as oblivious as possible until I realize that something is actually missing. Where do I even begin? I could just brushed it off & take it just as another one of my delusional paranoia or I can try to figure it out & make matters worst. Don't get me wrong, I'm not taking it personally but I just feel like typing it out. It's my blog, i'm just going to voice out my opinions. Nothing more, nothing less.
I realize I'm no longer close with any of my friends anymore. I'm guess I did remember my 2010 resolution to refrain myself from knowing about everybody's business. I think that it is sort of actually happening right now. There's a lot of things that I do not know off that is going on in my friends' life.
At times, I truly feel at a lost as to what is going on in Q's life in terms of her personal life. Sometimes I feel like there's just stuffs that she's not telling me but I can't expect her to tell me everything right? I gotta respect what she wants to tell me & what I need to know.
Ayun, he is busy with everyone & NS. So, he'll just randomly update me & he does update me the important stuffs. So technically, I'm cool with it & furthermore, he's my cousin so I'm stuck with him till death do us part.
Azieera & Syima, I'm losing touch with them. Azieera is always busy with work or Idah & from the looks of it, I'm assuming that she doesn't like to chill at telepark anymore. Syima is attached to Jingwei so that explains everything.
Khairul, he's getting busy with his airport job, Starbucks crew & going to the gym. Good for him. I am actually proud of him from XL to a size M. He just consults me for gay stuffs.
Netty is attached to Randy, busy working or with Q. I'm always cool with her.
Ayis, I don't even know anything about him at all. He is either tweeting/tumblring emotional stuffs or just very angry but he doesn't share anything at all. I just let him be.
Alif, Azman, Randy, Jingwei & Fairul, there are just in their own world.
I guess it's not that easy to adapt to being oblivious. I have a tendency to know about everybody's shits now I only know what they told me. I guess I'm cool with it. Being oblivious isn't that bad after all.
PS: *huggies*
