It was weird of you to send a Facebook friend
request to me considering that my display picture was rather horrendous. I
looked like I got raped, drugged and just had a mug-shot. I just accepted the friend
request without much thought and instantaneously received a message from you.
“Hi there, my name is Tobias. Hoping that I could
get to know you more. Xxox”
And I happily replied, “Sure. Anyway my name is
Fadly, thanks for adding me up. *huggies*”
You asked for my mobile number without hesitation
and before I knew it, we were whatsappin’ each other, throughout my journey
back home.
Upon reaching home, I logon to my Facebook account
and lo and behold, you were really gorgeous. I really felt like an ugly
duckling compared to you. Going through my notifications, I realized that you
clicked “liked” on almost half of the pictures in my profile album, including
those pictures where I seriously looked like a freak. I thought it was a joke
that you liked several of my pictures. Clicking on your profile, I immediately
noticed that most of your pictures were of runways and photo-shoots. I
remembered you telling me that you are a student taking your degree in Fashion
Studies in a school in Copenhagen, Denmark. I automatically asked if you were a
model. At the back of my mind, I was really super excited to be friends with a
real male model. Surprisingly, you were easily honest to me.
Over the next few months, we were skyping and
whatsappin’ each other on regular basis. Throughout this whole time, not once
did we ever voice out if they was something going on between the two of us. We
click on so many levels and we were so comfortable with each other that our
families knew about us. To top it off, every time I saw an ad with you in it, I
was super proud.
Roughly five months after we know each other, you
told me that you wanted to visit Singapore for a week or so. I was so excited
that I was constantly smiling the whole time we were skyping. I was literally
counting down the days to your arrival. I skipped school just to make sure that
I could fetch you from the airport. You told me that most probably you would be
coming alone; it’s just that I didn’t expect you to come down with another four
more of your model friends. Much to my excitement, I know all four of them; it
was Francisco Lachowsky, Sebastian Suave, Sean O’Pry and James Smith. I could
literally have an orgasm when I saw you guys walked out from the arrival hall.
When I walked over to say hi to you, shockingly, you guys gave me a kiss on the
cheek each. I almost had an orgasm on the spot but I was able to control
myself. It was a good thing that I was able to use the family car to drive you
guys to the hotel. While walking to the car, you were holding on to my hand all
the way. It didn't feel weird because I have been holding most of my friends’
hands for the fun of it. The issue was that it felt perfect.
After letting you and your friends checked-in
first, we decided to have dinner at 8pm that night. After dinner, we were just
sitting and discussing the itinerary during your stay. The weird thing was that
I literally remembered what the plan was. You guys arrived on a Wednesday
evening from New York Fashion Week.
Thursday – Universal Studios Singapore, the whole
day.
Friday – Shopping in the afternoon and Attica at
night.
Saturday – Relaxing by the pool and dinner with
the Dolls.
Sunday – Shopping and Movies during the day and
drinking at Brewerkz.
Monday – Catching a tan at Sentosa and chilling at
Tanjong Beach Club.
Tuesday – Trying out our luck in the Casino.
Wednesday – Last minute shopping and clubbing at
Zouk.
Thursday – Your flight is at 6pm.
It was literally crazy going out with you and your
model friends. People who keep up with the fashion industry would recognize all
five of you guys and I was there, like a misfit. Every now and then, strangers would
come up to take pictures with you guys and I would have to be the so-called
photographer. As much as you felt bad for me, there’s nothing much you can do
about it. At times, we will be going to
places in my car and at other times, we will be taking public transport. Every
time we take the public transport, you have the tendency to put your arms
around my shoulders or my waist and rest your chin on my head. I don’t even
feel uncomfortable at all and it’s a bit confusing for me considering, that I
don’t know what is going on. The other thing about it was that somehow I
actually enjoyed your small gestures.
USS was such a blast, clubbing with you guys was
crazy and several times, you literally kissed me on the lips and said you loved
me. I just kissed you back, said the same thing and laughed it off. Shopping
with you and the guys was a whole different story; all of you guys shopped way
worse than any of my girlfriends. It was super sweet of you and your friends to
constantly ask me if I wanted anything and that you guys were willing to pay
for it. Hanging out with you and the rest was just different; it was more
chilled without any worries.
Without failed, I had a dinner gathering on one of
the nights with only a few of the dolls and the five of them. There was Nazron,
Azieera, Khairul, Syima, Netty, Randy, Alif, Abang and Fairul with this tall
good looking Korean guy. Thankfully everybody was able to talk and had small
conversations throughout dinner. We took like loads of pictures.
On the last day, the two of us had lunch together
since you insisted. We ordered lunch and while waiting for the food, you asked
me to be in a relationship with you. Honestly speaking, it never did occur in
my mind that both of us would be in a relationship together. You were sitting
opposite me and explaining yourself and I was just lost for words. I told you
that I would give the answer later.
Our friendship was more of a relationship but I
guess the thought of having a long distance relationship scares me. Come to
think of it, we have been in a so-called long distance relationship for the
past six months through skyping and whatsappin’. I don’t know what was wrong with me but I
didn’t give you an answer until we reached the airport. While waiting for you
guys to check-in, I just kept quiet until you pulled me aside and ask me again.
I told you that I’m ecstatic to be in a relationship with you. Without warning,
you grabbed me and we made-out in the middle of the airport. The others were
just staring at us until we stop kissing before coming over to congratulate us.