Thirty weeks later...

The first week of my Year 2. I'm still in a state of disbelief that I am actually studying in NAFA and am already in my second year. I will be forever grateful for the chance given. Syukur-Alhamdulillah. ♥

Once again, I had 7 core modules plus 1 additional extra credit module.

Web-Centric Applications in Business

HTML and Java Script. I have always hated any modules that have to do with them. Surprisingly, this time round, I'm a little bit ready for it. Most probably because I have been meddling around with the codings for my blog for the past few years. I am slightly getting the hang of it. To top it off, we will be learning Dreamweaver and Photoshop which I know the basics quite well. 

The only problem with this module would be the lecturer. He has a tendency of saying the word 'alright' and 'well' every few seconds that most of us get easily irritated by it. I'm just going to try to brush up on my zoning out skills so that I would be able to zone out those two words.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module. 

Introduction to World Music

This module was pretty much straight forward. We would be learning more about folk/traditional music with a modern twist from all around the world. We have to learn the types of musical instruments and the type of sounds they make. There's only two test and a presentation. I'm super confident for this module.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

Stage Management 1

Pretty much the reason why I join NAFA in the first place, to be a Stage Manager. I was honestly looking forward to this module until the lecturer starts to open her mouth. Her pronunciation was quite bad and the way she paraphrase her questions are a tad confusing. Half of the time, I'm trying to figure out what exactly is she trying to convey to us.

The upside to this module would be that it is very hands-on with loads of presentations and site visits. Even though the way she teaches us is super dry and three quarter of the class are stoning, I'm the only one who constantly pretends that I am listening. I will try my best to get on her good books.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

Principles of Marketing

A combined class with PA2A and VA2A. I have always hate combined classes. I couldn't concentrate that much with the amount of people in the room. Anyway, for this module, I pretty much think that I can score quite well if it is essay-based questions. By as for now, it is still to early to tell but the lecturer is a really nice guy.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

Principles of Accounting

Firstly, the lecturer is super fun! He makes the class interesting and very engaging which is a very good thing. On the other hand, this is my first time studying Accounting and I'm a bit scared that I won't be able to catch up. Hopefully with my studious and encouraging classmates, I'll be able to understand it soon.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

Aesthetics of Arts (Performing / Visual)

Apparently this module is being split into two. With the first 7 weeks, we will be learning about Visual Arts and interpreting them while the next 7 weeks, it would be Performing Arts and understanding them. Two separate lectures but at least, I had classes with them during my first year. This class is going to be quite a breeze.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

Practical Scenic Design

Autocad, Stage and Lighting Design. What's there not to love about this module. I have been scoring As for the foundation of the module. I pretty much have this one settled and the lecturer is super fun and understanding.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

Introduction to Ceramics

I took up this module as my Cross-Disciplinary Elective and furthermore, it was 3 credits. I was trying to get as much credits squeeze it.

Anyway, I found out that 5 of the Year 3 Theatre students were in the same class with me. I'm pretty much excited about it since I know the whole Theatre English Department. From the looks of it, this class is going to be so much fun because of the classmates, the lecturer and the amount of freedom that we have to allow to express ourselves.

Insya-allah, I will get A for this module.

On a side note, it's kind of nice to be so-called popular. I mean, I was popular back in Tekong but it was more for a different kind of reason. Everybody in Tekong knows that I was an outgoing and flamboyant gay boy who was my officer's PA. In NAFA, the feeling of being popular is different. People actually look up to me. They know that I'm one of the smart ones, outgoing and friendly. At the same time, they also know that they can just approach me to strike up a conversation and I would also gladly help them. 

It feels real nice to have people smiling and saying hi to you even though half the time you have no idea what's their name.

Twenty Nine weeks later...

What can I say about this week? It is pretty much one of the most tiring week I have ever had in NAFA so far. It was physically and mentally draining for me. 

Monday

The Orientation leaders had to report at 8am for briefing and confirmation of our roles. We welcomed the freshmen from Design & Media, Dance, Music and Fine Arts. It was pretty much a first time for most of us so as expected, there was quite a number of miscommunications. Honestly saying, it wasn't that bad at all. Pretty much everybody was able to fix any issues or misunderstandings on their own.

Tuesday

We welcomed the freshmen from Arts Management & Education, Theatre, Fashion Studies and 3D Design. The energy level was quite hyped up and it was much more fun entertaining them. Since most of us already know what was needed to be done, it went much more smoothly then the first day.

Wednesday

It was a matter of welcoming the Degree Students and there were only about 100 of them. It was quite straight forward and lasted only half a day. Then after that, we had a pre-camp briefing/training which was rather interesting and honest. The committee had to finalize all last minute camp stuffs. 

Thursday / Friday

The first NAFA Freshmen Orientation Camp 2012. It was chaos and everything went haywire from the start. We were trying our best to hold everything together and making sure that we put the freshmen before ourselves first. As usual, I am always in-charge of the administrative duties while the other Co-Vice Chairman, Tristan is in-charge of all the heavy/physical duties. From a third party's point of view, the camp actually was a success but from the leaders' point of view, there are still a whole load of things which we can really improve on if we were given a longer time frame to plan on.

Personally for me, it was a success. The freshmen got to make friends with students from other departments, they bonded really well, they had loads of fun and it was a memorable experience for almost everyone there.

As much as it was very tiring for me, I had a truly wonderful time.

Moving on...

I just needed to put up a picture of the Harries twins. Jack and Finn Harries. They're British. 

Something totally unexpected happened today.

I bumped into an ex-secondary schoolmate of mine. Out of courtesy sake, I said hi. Before I knew it, he told me that he was transferred to the same department as me a few months after I have completed my NS. He was telling me that he knew everybody in the office and vice versa. 

What a small world.

So I just let him continue rattled on about all those men that were under my care during my time of service. The unexpected part was when he told me that he used to be closed to Syed Fairuz. The guy that I am so in love with up till this very day. He just blatantly said that SF is now married to the same girl that has been with him throughout NS. The girl that hated me for trying to so-called steal SF away from her. 

There and then, I could literally hear my heart turn to ashes and being blown away into the wind while my facial expression was still maintaining an interest towards the conversation. My thoughts went back to the 8 months that we spent together. 

I guess upon hearing that news, it was the closure that I needed in order to move on with me life. I've been stuck in this stupid position since 2007. I just wanted to cry my eyes out. I wanted to cry myself to sleep. Right now, I'm just trying to grasp, understand and fully digest the news. Part of me is still living in denial.

Two heartbreaks within a month. I wonder how many more heartbreaks do I need to deal with before I would finally commit suicide? I'm no longer strong as I use to be. It's beginning to hurt. The bandage is no longer doing its job.