Got my appraisal grading today. I got another C. Three years in a row.
I mean, for my first year, I was expecting a C grade considering that I didn't do anything new other than whatever was clearly stated within my job scope and making the effort to learn things out of my purview to expand my knowledge.
Then for my second year, half way through, 1 manager went on her maternity leave, another manager left to do her Masters and another manager quit her job. So basically, I was juggling bits and pieces of their roles until one of them came back from her maternity leave. It was 2 of us covering 4 people's duties. I was expecting a C+. I did more than what was expected of me. I did things that were not part of my job scope, mainly because it was thrown to me. Let's be honest, off course I expect monetary recognition for it rather than just a thank you. Thank you does nothing for my financial situation. And I got a C.
Last year was my third year, I took over 2 of my managers' portfolios on top of my job scope, expending my roles because I was putting in the effort to get a C+ grading. I was assisting the respective sub-divisions (Programming, Architectural & UNESCO teams) in any way possible. I felt that I was taking on more compare to my time as a temp staff and my first year as a perm staff. I was confident that I can get a C+ grading because during my appraisal, I was able to list down things that I did and my accomplishments. Personally, I could see the growth in my work compared to my first and second year.
But hey, I guess it's still not enough.
And now, with the current restructuring and answering to multiple people, I've lost interest in my job already. I've started job hunting. I thought that I wanted to apply for an opening in another division until I discovered that I won't be able to renegotiate for a higher pay even if the job title is higher than my current job title. Then what is the point of me applying for a different role in another division if I'm not going to get a higher pay?
Sending out my resumes. Hopefully, I will get at least a first interview or something. I need to practice my skills getting interviewed.
In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.
