Wednesday, December 25, 2024

Recap

I'm grateful for 2024.

Finance
First half of the year went well. Then a work trip happened, and everything went haywire after that. Now I'm broke and in credit card debt. Though I am confident that I will be able to finish paying the debt by next year June. In Shaa' Allah, my finances for next year will be better and I will be more discipline in managing my finances. I have been repeating the same thing every single year but I keep failing at it. I have to do better. I need to do better. I will do better. 

Travel 
It was a good year. I went on a 15 days, 14 nights work trip to Hamburg, Germany around end of June till early July. Followed by 8 days, 7 nights holiday to Bangkok, Thailand in August. My 3rd trip to Bangkok. Lastly, I went back to Tokyo after 10 years. It was 10 days, 9 nights in Tokyo, Japan in October till early November. This year's trips are definitely better than last year. It was my first time going to Hamburg and being in Europe after 5 years, and experiencing the European Summer holidays. I am grateful for my trips this year and all the new experiences that I got to make. I'm already planning for next year's trip to Bangkok. It will be my go-to holiday place when I'm on a budget to go anywhere outside of South-East Asia. Lastly, it was Tokyo after 10 long years. It was tiring and expensive but it was better than I could have imagine. Though if I ever want to go back to Tokyo again, my budget will have to be quite big so that I can do all that I want with no worries. Alhamdulillah for all the overseas travel.

Career
I finally started a new job. After my 5th year at NHB and knowing that it will take me at least another 2-3 more years before I will get promoted, I took it as a sign for me to start finding a new job. Spent almost 10 months before I finally secured a new job. From the looks of it, I am positive of my career growth in this company. I have a clearer sense of what I need to do to get promoted, compared to my previous job. And honestly, the money is good. What I am earning now is equivalent to a manager's pay in NHB, and if I was to still be in NHB, it will take me another 5 more years to get this pay. Alhamdulillah for it. 

Hobbies
I have not been drawing since May. I'm not inspired or motivated to do anymore patterns or rather I got nothing coming out of me. I'm buying more Danmei books but I'm not even reading them. I have about more than 20 Danmei books but I have only read 1 of them. I'm too distracted with reading my online light novels that has broken English with complicated and repeated plots. I'm reading too many online manhua/manhwa/manga that I'm just annoyed having to wait for them that I keep switching around. I have not written a fan-fiction story since forever even though, i do have 2 new plots just brewing around in my head. I really need to pick one and start back instead of watching 20 different shows right now and none of them are in English. In Shaa' Allah, I will start back on my hobby of drawing or reading books again.

Health
I know that I have gained weight back but I am in denial about the whole thing. I mean in this past year, I think, I went to the gym like 20 times or so. Honestly, it's so hard to motivate myself to go to the gym this year. Now that my new job starts at 10.30am so my whole intention of going to gym first before work started out well. It was 2 times a week and it last for just 3 weeks before everything went downhill. And honestly, the amount of times my sinus acted up this year till it went full-blown flu is quite a lot. I went to the doctor 4 times this year to stock up on both my drowsy and non-drowsy flu medication. On the plus side, I started taking 8 different kinds of supplements (Vitamin C, Magnesium, Probiotics SB, Zinc, Ashwagandha, Astaxanthin, Fish Oil, Ginkgo & Brahmi) since March. I can't tell the different but hopefully it's helping. In Shaa' Allah, I will start going back to the gym. Maybe after puasa next year or after I finished paying off my debt and have extra cash to spare.

Birthday
The original idea was to go Bintan for a relaxing 3 days 2 nights spa retreat. Then I overspent during my worktrip in Hamburg, followed by another overspending in Bangkok and lastly, got overexcited and exceeded my budget. So basically, I'm broke to do anything for my birthday because I decided to get myself early birthday gifts while I was overseas. I got myself an LV bag, a Dior backpack, a Tiffany ring, Medicube Age-R Booster Pro, and a non-invasive facelift which was marvelous! In the end, I spent the whole day cleaning my room - washing the windows, mopping the floors, wiping every corner of the room, rearranging my wardrobe space, changing the bedsheets, refolding the clothes, ironing all the work clothes, and rearranging my books. Though I did had a belated birthday dinner with Nazron, Netty, Aidah & Haikal, which was nice. And now it's like everything the 5 of us meet up, we will dress up, which is like 3 to 4 times a year. Alhamdulillah for the presents from myself to myself, though I need to restrain myself for next year's birthday present.

In Shaa' Allah, I can make 2025 a better year than 2024. I need to do daily motivations or something. I need to be more discipline. I need to be more strict on myself.

Thursday, December 12, 2024

Last Month

I have so much to say but then I realized that it would not be about me, so what's the point?  

At the end of the day, we are all sinners judging other sinners differently and I will always be a villain in someone's story. 

And I need to be okay with it. As long as my conscience is clear.

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Anyway, I guess this last month has been quiet. It feels very reflective. It started out with preparing a few documents & protocols for the start of next year. Then it became me planning my leave for 2025. I will have 22 days of leave, followed by 2 days off-in-lieu for Hari Raya Haji and National Day. Subsequently, it led to me planning my monthly achievable mini-goals before I found myself spiralling, planning my overall goals and my holidays for next year, recalculating my finances as well. It feels like I'm trying to accomplish a lot of things for 2025 but when I read through them, it can be done. My only issue is trying to find the motivation and be discipline enough to achieve it.

In Shaa' Allah, I will be able to do it.

Tuesday, November 12, 2024

Tokyo

Tokyo, Japan
24th October - 02nd November 2024

24th October 2024, Thursday
Haneda Airport
Moxy Tokyo Kinshicho Hotel
Tokyo Chinese Muslim Restaurant

25th October 2024, Friday
Akihabara, Tokyo
Masjid Nusantara Akihabara Tokyo
Shosen Book Tower
Tokyo Skytree

26th October 2024, Saturday
National Museum of Western Art, Tokyo
Ueno, Tokyo
Photoshoot at Shibuya & Shinjuku

27th October 2024, Sunday
Ginza District - Uniqlo Ginza & Ginza Six

28th October 2024, Monday
teamLab Planets
Tempura Asakusa Sakura
teamLab Borderless

29th October 2024, Tuesday
Harry Potter Studio Tour
Kinokuniya Bookstore Shinjuku

30th October 2024, Wednesday
Tokyo Disneyland 
Tokyo Disneysea

31st October 2024, Thursday
Yayoi Kusama Museum
Ninja Yakiniku Asakusa
Asakusa, Tokyo

01st November 2024, Friday
Shibuya, Tokyo
Tower Records
Shibuya Sky

02nd November 2024, Saturday
Tokyo Camii & Diyanet Turkish Culture Centre
Halal Tendon Itsuki
Moxy Tokyo Kinshicho Hotel
Haneda Airport

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Tokyo was good. It was really tiring but it was good. I was there 10 years ago for a school exchange program and I loved it. 10 years later, I still loved it. Even though it was really crowded, way too crowded compared to Singapore, but it was great. The weather was good. The food was good. My only issue is that on the 5th day onwards, my legs were crying. And honestly, if I was to ever return to Japan again, it will have to be a Tokyo, Kyoto & Osaka trip and I will need a budget of $10,000 to indulge myself properly. 

And now, I will be broke until end of the year or maybe next year January.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

Saturday, October 12, 2024

Messed-Up

These were my original monthly goals that I set out at the start of the year.
  1. January - Buy new office attire for new job.
  2. February - Buy Trial of X, Volume 1-12.
  3. March - Set aside for Hari Raya.
  4. April - Buy Japan flight ticket.
  5. May - Savings
  6. June - Savings
  7. July - Savings
  8. August - Book tours & tickets for Japan trip.
  9. September - Savings
  10. October - 2 weeks in Osaka & Tokyo.
  11. November - Savings
  12. December - Birthday trip to Bangkok.

And now?
  1. January - Buy new office attire for new job. (Achieved)
  2. February - Buy Trial of X, Volume 1-12. (Achieved)
  3. March - Set aside for Hari Raya. (Achieved)
  4. April - Buy Japan flight ticket. (Failed - I bought my Bangkok flight ticket instead.)
  5. May - Savings. (Failed - I bought my Tokyo flight ticket instead. )
  6. June - Savings. (Failed - I went on a 2 weeks worktrip to Hamburg, got overexcited, went on a shopping spree and spent more than $8,000.)
  7. July - Savings. (Failed - I was paying back my credit card debt.)
  8. August - Book tours & tickets for Japan trip. (Failed - I went to Bangkok and miscalculated my funds, end up with more debt.)
  9. September - Savings. (Failed - I was paying back my credit card debt.)
  10. October - 2 weeks in Osaka & Tokyo. (Failed - I will only be going to Tokyo for 10 days on a rather tight budget.)
  11. November - Savings. (Failed - I will be paying back my credit card debt.)
  12. December - Birthday trip to Bangkok (Semi-achieved - I did went to Bangkok in August, though now, I will still be paying back my credit card debt.)
I really need to managed my finances properly. Left with about 3 months till 2025 and I've been broke since I came back from my Hamburg trip. This November and December, I really need to get my act together. Hopefully 2025, I will be more strict on myself.

In Shaa' Allah, I will be able to pay my credit card debt and everything will be fine.

Thursday, September 12, 2024

Tight budget

So I started planning for my upcoming Tokyo trip in October. 10 days and 9 nights in Tokyo, Japan. I'm not even in Tokyo yet and I have already spent more than $600 paying for all my tickets.
  • Akihabara Anime Tour - SGD$36.45
  • National Museum of Western Art - ¥2,600 ~ SGD$23.99
  • Airbnb Photoshoot - SGD$112.64
  • teamLab Planets - ¥4,200 ~ SGD$39.26
  • teamLab Borderless - ¥4,600 ~ SGD$43.13
  • Harry Potter Tour - ¥9,900 ~ SGD$93.19
  • Tokyo Disneyland - ¥9,900 ~ SGD$93.19
  • Tokyo DisneySea - ¥9,900 ~SGD$93.19
  • Yayoi Kusama Museum - ¥1,100 ~ SGD$10.06
  • Tokyo Skytree - ¥3,100 ~ SGD$28.63
  • Art Aquarium Ginza - ¥2,500 ~ SGD$23.09
  • Shibuya Sky - ¥2,500 ~ SGD$23.09
And I now know for sure that I do not have enough money to shop. I really need to look through my finances properly. I might have to borrow money from my siblings but I'm really hoping that I could avoid that.

Other than that, I'm really excited to go to Tokyo even though I'm on a really really tight budget but I'll make it work.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

Saturday, August 31, 2024

Hobbies

I need to find either a cheaper hobby or keep myself occupied with something else. The amount of things that I want to purchase is really making me broke. And to top it off, it's more of me collecting them. At least 50% of the books and comics that I have had purchased, it's mostly for aesthetic purposes. Like I just want a complete set of things if I happened to like them. 

Also, subconsciously, I saw a saying somewhere that "your personal home library should minimally have 1,000 books". It has always been a dream of mine to have my own personal library and I already have more than 250 books. So I'm a quarter of the way to achieving this goal.

Marvel's X-Men
  • House of X, #1-6 ✔️
  • Powers of X, #1-6 ✔️
  • Dawn of X, Volume 1-16 ✔️
  • X of Swords ✔️
  • Reign of X, Volume 1-14 ✔️
  • X-Men: Hellfire Gala 2021 ✔️
  • Trials of X, Volume 1-12 ✔️
  • Destiny of X, Volume 1-9 ✔️
  • X-Men: Hellfire Gala 2022 ✔️
  • A.X.E: Judgement Day ✔️
  • X-Men: Hellfire Gala 2023
  • Fall of X, Volume ?
  • Fall of the House of X, #1-5
  • Rise of the Powers of X, #1-5

Danmei Series
  • The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System, Volume 1-4 ✔️
  • Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation, Volume 1-5 ✔️
  • Heaven Official's Blessing, Volume 1-8 ✔️
  • The Husky and His White Cat Shizun, Volume 1-7
  • Thousand Autumns, Volume 1-5
  • Peerless, Volume 1-2

GMMTV Plush Dolls
  • KristSingto ✔️
  • OffGun ✔️
  • TayNew ✔️
  • BrightWin ✔️
  • EarthMix ✔️
  • PondPhuwin ✔️
  • OhmNanon ✔️
  • ForceBook ✔️
  • JoongDunk ✔️
  • JimmySea ✔️
  • FirstKhaotung ✔️
  • GeminiFourth ✔️
  • KristGawin ✔️
  • PerthChimon
  • SeaKeen
  • GreatInn
  • BounPrem
In Shaa' Allah, I will achieve my goal.

Monday, August 12, 2024

Bangkok

Bangkok, Thailand
03rd - 10th August 2024

03rd August 2024, Saturday
Suvarnabhumi Airport
Eastin Grand Hotel Phayathai
Siam Center

04th August 2024, Sunday
Platinum Fashion Mall
Central Chidlom
ICONSIAM

05th August 2024, Monday
The Metro Clinic
Central Embassy
LV The Place
EmQuartier
EmSphere
Central World

06th August 2024, Tuesday
MRT Sanam Chai
Museum Siam
The Foundation of Islamic of Thailand
Omakase Dental Clinic

07th August 2024, Wednesday
Platinum Fashion Mall
National Museum Bangkok
The National Gallery of Thailand
GMM Building
SiamScape
MBK Centre

08th August 2024, Thursday
Terminal21 Asok
S' Sense Massage & Spa
Chinatown

09th August 2024, Friday
Bangkok Art and Culture Centre
MBK Centre

10th August 2024, Saturday
Eastin Grand Hotel Phayathai
Suvarnabhumi Airport

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My third time to Bangkok and I will go again next year. Not sure when I will go but most probably, I would want to celebrate my birthday in Bangkok next year. There's something special about Bangkok that just makes me come back to it for 3 years straight. And if I am celebrating my birthday in Bangkok next year, I need to think of doing something special. We shall see how it goes next year but honestly, it will be really nice to be in Bangkok in December with all the Christmas festivities and events.

Though I do have a slight problem. I exceeded my budget for this trip by a lot. Let's hope that I will be able to stick to my budget the next time.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

Friday, July 12, 2024

Work Trip

Hamburg, Germany
26th June - 10th July 2024

My first work trip with the company. 2 weeks in Hamburg, Germany on my own and thankfully I had 2 weekends to myself to explore the city. It was my first time in Germany and in Europe during the Summer. The 2 times that I had been to Europe - Paris & London - it was during Autumn, which was nice and cooling. Surprisingly, Summer in Hamburg is just as nice. The lowest was 18 degrees celsius while the highest was 26 degree celsius. It helps that the winds are strong thus even when it was bright and hot, it was still windy.

It was also my first time working in an European office where I am the only Asian. It was interesting to see the working culture there. I have been working in the government sector for more than 6 years, so I'm used to the hierarchy and fixed working hours. It was refreshing to see the flexibility and the easiness of the office environment. I was there for only 2 weeks but everyone was friendly and easy to talk to, and also at least half of the office are smokers. And the amount of times they smoke during working hours was honestly tiring for me. The company's annual Summer party was quite laid-back and easy-going. Something completely different from what I have went to during my time in the civil service.

Work wise - let's just say that I am finally doing what they had hired me to do. I was hired to do HR and Compliance in the Singapore office. Due to unforeseen circumstances, I was only able to do my HR duties as there was nobody to train me in Compliance. Now that I have finally learnt the foundation of Compliance, there's already a list of things for me to follow up on once I'm back in Singapore. Truth be told, I can feel the imposter syndrome setting in. Oh well, we shall see how it goes.

Overall, I think I would not have minded at all if the company decided to send me to the HQ for 2 years. I mean, it would be once in a lifetime experience and I would love to practice on German. I have a lot more things that I want to type down but I'm still feeling jet-lagged and my thoughts are a little bit messy.

26th June 2024, Wednesday
Hamburg Airport
Novotel Hamburg City Alster
Office

27th June 2024, Thursday
Office

28th June 2024, Friday
Office
Hamburg Central Mosque

29th June 2024, Saturday
Hamburger Kunstalle
Museum fur Kunst und Gewerbe, Hamburg

30th June 2024, Sunday
Miniatur Wunderland

01st July 2024, Monday
Office
Tiffany & Co.

02nd July 2024, Tuesday
Office

03rd July 2024, Wednesday
Office
Louis Vuitton

04th July 2024, Thursday
Office

05th July 2024, Friday
Office
Summer Party
UEFA EURO 2024 - Quarterfinals

06th July 2024, Saturday
Lubeck, Germany
Museumquartier St. Annen

07th July 2024, Sunday
Tierpark Hagenbeck Zoo

08th July 2024, Monday
Office
Dior

09th July 2024, Tuesday
Office

10th July 2024, Wednesday
Office
Hamburg Airport

So I went on a shopping spree while I was in Hamburg and I exceeded my budget by a lot. My original intention was to just get an LV bag and a Tiffany ring because of the price difference and tax refund. But then I saw that the Dior backpack that I was aiming for my birthday present this year has a huge cost difference, I just had to get it. It was worth it but now, I'm so broke. I'm so broke that I want to cry. And I might not have any money for my upcoming Tokyo trip. I do have enough for my upcoming Bangkok trip in 3 weeks' time but it will be super tight.

1. Louis Vuitton Keepall Bandouliere 25
Hamburg - €1,950 (SGD$2,966.13) / Singapore - SGD$3,350
I saved almost SGD$400.

2. Tiffany & Co, Paloma Picasso; Olive Leaf Bypass Ring in Silver
Hamburg - €470 (SGD$712.56) / Singapore - SGD$670
I made a lost of more than SGD$40.

3. Christian Dior Large Hit the Road Backpack 
Hamburg - €3,000 (SGD$4,555.12) / Singapore - SGD$5,100
I saved almost SGD$600.

And now, I shall be eating cheap hawker food for the rest of the year.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

Wednesday, June 12, 2024

Broke

Can I start crying already?
  • 26th June till 10th July in Hamburg, Germany.
  • 3rd August till 10th August in Bangkok, Thailand.
  • 24th October till 2nd November in Tokyo, Japan.

The more I planned my trips, the more I realized that I am actually very broke. I'm not regular broke, I'm bougie broke, I'm broqué. I mean I do have enough money to cover all my basic expenses and allowances while I am in Singapore. And for all my overseas trip, I am recalculating my finances constantly. I'm trying to fit things within my restrictions and trying my best not to tap into my credit card. But from the looks of it, I might go into credit card debt because of this.

Basically, I bought my Bangkok and Tokyo flight tickets quite early in the year, to enjoy the cheap pricing. I managed to reserve the hotels that I wanted. Had a rough outline of my itinerary of the things I was planning to do. Decided on my budget for shopping in both cities and also the activities that I planned for. I was confident that I would be able to stick to my budget.

Then around end of April, I was informed that my company would like to send me to the headquarters in Hamburg. So the flight, hotel and a daily allowance of €20 are provided by the company, which is quite a substantial amount but because I know that I have 2 weekends to myself, I have already planning quite a few activities to do while I'm there. And lastly, I found out that the LV Keepall Bandouliere 25 that I have been aiming for since last year, is at least SGD500 difference if I was to buy it in Hamburg. There goes my money.

It's only June but I'm already broke for the rest of the year. My financial status will be tight but honestly, I am excited about the experiences that I will have from my trips. 

It will be my first time going to Hamburg and I'm quite excited to meet up with my German colleagues and learn new things from them. Something completely different from what I have been doing since the start of my career. Returning to Bangkok again, there's always something new to explore there every time I go back to that city. I'm really need to make it as an annual trip. Lastly, I'm finally going back to Tokyo after 10 years. 10 years ago, I went to Tokyo as part of my school trip. Even though we managed to explore it as part of the curriculum, it wasn't enough. I'm looking forward to having 10 days getting lost in the city.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

Sunday, May 12, 2024

3 months in

I realized that I will be broke for the rest of the year. It's only May but the amount of things that I need to spend on is a lot. My financial goals are changing again. 

I received a piece of good news. I was offered to go to Hamburg, Germany for 2 weeks, to my company's headquarters. I will be there from 25th June till 10th July, hopefully learning new things about the company and the industry. That also means I need to set aside more money for spending since I will have 2 whole weekends to myself. Looking forward to it.

Alhamdulillah, work has been fine. My long-term goal is to stay in this company for 5 years and reach my ideal salary by then. In Shaa' Allah, I will achieve it.
  1. January - Buy new office attire for new job. 
  2. February - Buy Trial of X, Volume 1-12.
  3. March - Set aside for Hari Raya.
  4. April - Buy Bangkok flight ticket.
  5. May - Buy Tokyo flight ticket.
  6. June - 2 weeks worktrip to Hamburg, Germany.
  7. July - Savings.
  8. August - 1 week trip to Bangkok, Thailand.
  9. September - Savings.
  10. October - 10 days trip to Tokyo, Japan.
  11. November - Savings.
  12. December - Savings.
The rest of the year will be spend paying off my 3 overseas trips.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will go along smoothly for the rest of the year.

Friday, April 12, 2024

Off-tracked

I went completely off-tracked for my April goal.

The plan was to get an LV bag for myself. But I ended up getting a pair of contour pillows, a neck massager, health supplements, my facial products, purchased my Bangkok air ticket for August and preparation for Hari Raya. Pretty much, took out two-thirds of my budget for the bag. 
  • Contour Pillows - $158.00
  • Neck Massager - $239.00
  • Health Supplements - $124.74
  • Facial Products - $282.00
  • Bangkok Air Tickets - $462.80
  • Duit Raya - $1,000
  • Kuih Raya - $262.00
And everything that I got is for my well-being. Is this how it feels like to get old?

Oh well, I'll just put it as part of my wishlist. It's not really a need but it's more of a 90%-I-really-want-that-bag kind of thing. Though I was targeting an LV Christopher MM Bagpack or Dior Hit The Road Bagpack. I would love to replace my Coach Bagpack since I've been using it close to 3 years. Again, it's not really a need but I would love to have it.

Oh well, we shall see if I will still stick to it or completely scrap this goal.

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This year's Ramadan feels a little bit off for me. I don't know but I just feel disappointed in myself. I know that I didn't do as well as last year's Ramadan. After 4 years of doing my Ramadan while working from home, it feels different to be fasting and working at the new office. It was honestly a challenge. Almost on a daily basis, I feel very gassy - it's either I want to burp but I can't burp or I want to fart but I can't fart. Constantly feeling the air in my body getting stuck. And I will randomly feel that the office is too cold for comfort. Feeling sleepy before lunchtime. In Shaa' Allah, next year will be better and I will do better.

Also, I need to better prepare myself financially for next year's Ramadan and Syawal. I didn't realize that I would need quite a huge sum. Minimally, I would need $2,500.
  • Iftar treat for my paternal uncles & aunties - $1,000
  • Duit Raya - $1,000
  • Kuih Raya - $500
I did received a piece of bad news during Ramadan. The thing that annoyed me was that I did foresee it happening with the way things were but at the end of the day, it's not my place to even voice it out. At the same time, for it to happened sooner than expected was surprising to me as well. 

Hari Raya came and went. The first day went fine but Thursday & Friday are not going well so far. I'm having diarrhoea, being going in and out of the toilet at least 12 times. Originally planned to go to the gym and run errands in Orchard but have been staying home, just resting.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be smooth sailing.

Tuesday, March 12, 2024

Casual Update

Reshuffling my monthly goals. I've achieved 3 out of my 12 goals, so I'm on track and shall keep it that way.
  1. January - Buy new office attire for new job. 
  2. February - Buy Trial of X, Volume 1-12.
  3. March - Set aside for Hari Raya.
  4. April - Buy LV City Keepall 25 or Keepall Bandouliere 25.
  5. May - Buy Bangkok & Tokyo flight tickets.
  6. June - Savings.
  7. July - Savings.
  8. August - 1 week trip to Bangkok.
  9. September - Savings.
  10. October - 10 days trip to Tokyo.
  11. November - Savings.
  12. December - Savings.
I got fickle-minded and decided to bring forward my Bangkok trip. August is a non-peak period though it will be rainy season but I honestly don't mind it. Also I'm not willing to wait all the way till December to go to Bangkok. And after careful consideration, I realised that I won't be able to afford to go on a 2 weeks trip to Osaka & Tokyo. So i will cut short and make it a 10 days trip to Tokyo. I mean, there are a lot of things for me to do in Tokyo, I can take my time to explore the city.

In Shaa' Allah, I will be able to achieve all of my monthly goals.

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Life has been peaceful, I guess.

I deactivated my Instagram account since it was beginning to affect my mental health. There's so much I want to type down but I'm finding it quite hard trying to interpret/translate/arrange my thoughts and emotions properly. I want to to sit down and talk/discuss all my thoughts and emotions and have someone answer it for me. Just to be honest about it. Not on a therapy basis but more with providing different point of views and have a healthy discussion about everything that is going on. I can feel myself bottling things up and it's either I'm going to explode first or I will do something stupid to numb myself.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

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Work has been smooth sailing. 5 more months to go until the end of my probation. The pressure is not there yet but I'm expecting it once the Head of Compliance is available to go through with me on the company's compliance. I'm not sure what else to type about work. It has been straightforward so far - just taking care of the office and planning for upcoming things, arranging for interviews for internship. Weekly team meetings and weekly HR meetings. 

In Shaa' Allah, I will succeed in this new job.

Monday, February 12, 2024

Bye & Hello

Honestly, it came as a surprised to me when I started telling people that I'm leaving the company and subsequently a lot of them started making lunch plans with me. At the same time, it baffles me that these group of people would want to have lunches with me. I had always thought that I gave the impression of drawing the line that we are all strictly colleagues only. I admit that I am helpful whenever any one of them needs help with but I know to keep my distance with all of them. My understanding is that once you get too close with your colleagues, it will then evolve into a friendship which will then lead to after-office hours hangout. Truth be told, I'm at the stage of my life when I have no interest to hangout with my colleagues at all. As much as it's a nice surprise to know that I'm being acknowledge for all my friendliness, it does feel a tad weird to get notice. Anyway, I ended up having 8 farewell lunches with my colleagues - so 8 free lunches.
  • 9th Jan, Tuesday - Lunch with my 2 Senior Managers from Research & Engagement Sub-Division.
  • 12th Jan, Friday - Lunch with colleagues from Heritage Policy & Research Division.
  • 15th Jan, Monday - Lunch with my Senior Assistant Director from Built Heritage Sub-Division.
  • 16th Jan, Tuesday - Lunch with one of my colleagues from Strategic & Corporate Development Division.
  • 17th Jan, Wednesday - Lunch with colleagues from Preservation of Sites & Monuments Division.
  • 18th Jan, Thursday - Lunch with my Deputy Director from Research & Engagement Sub-Division.
  • 22nd Jan, Monday - Lunch with the Director of National Collections Division.
  • 25th Jan, Thursday - Lunch with colleagues from International & Museum Relations Division.
Spending the rest of my time - clearing my remaining leave days and preparing things for my next job. And that is pretty much me buying a whole new wardrobe. Apparently, my new work place requires their employees to wear typical office long-sleeve shirts daily and because of my current work place, which is quite relax with the attire, most of my clothes are prints and patterns. Along with my long-sleeve shirts, which are all prints. Thus now, I have to buy 20 new plain long-sleeve shirts - i have a thing about not repeating the same outfit within a span of 4 weeks. Too many things to buy and I feel like my break is quite short.

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My new work environment is quite different. Firstly, it is a small office of only 10 people, including me which is surprisingly refreshing for me. I mean after a year of running around answering to 3 directors and assisting more than 20 people, it is nice to have a small team to concentrate on. I personally feel that my new role is pretty much similar to my previous role except this time round, I am considered to be part of the HR team and will be working closely with the Compliance team. 

It has been 7 working days and I have a rough idea what I need to be doing though I can tell that it's only 10% of my overall jobscope. One of the things that I needed to do was to review the Business Conduct Manual for the Singapore office. I could literally cry as it is about the laws and statutes of the industry. And for someone who is not from this industry, it was ton of confusing research for me to do. It doesn't help that I need to multitask while doing my reading and research. 

Other than that, I was just planning things for Chinese New Year - sending out CNY hampers to our clients, planning for our team activity and CNY dinner, planning for the new staff coming in, among other things. And I will be starting my German classes in March, paid for by the company, which I am looking forward to. My first week has been good and my target is to work at this company for the next 5 years. Then I shall evaluate my life again.

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.

Friday, January 12, 2024

Monthly Goals

I think I'm going to make it an annual thing. Setting monthly goals for myself so that I know I am constantly taking a step forward. In Shaa' Allah, with this new job and higher pay, I hope I can manage my finances properly.
  1. January - Buy new office attire for new job.
  2. February - Buy Trial of X, Volume 1-12.
  3. March - Set aside for Hari Raya.
  4. April - Buy Japan flight ticket.
  5. May - Savings
  6. June - Savings
  7. July - Savings
  8. August - Book tours & tickets for Japan trip.
  9. September - Savings
  10. October - 2 weeks in Osaka & Tokyo.
  11. November - Savings
  12. December - Birthday trip to Bangkok.
Let's start with this list first and stick to it. In Shaa' Allah, I can do it.

Monday, January 01, 2024

2024

Daily prayers.

  1. May Allah SWT forgive all the Palestinians, alive and dead, for their sins & bring them to Jannah.
  2. May Allah SWT forgive my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & my sins.
  3. May Allah SWT accept my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & my good deeds.
  4. May Allah SWT protect my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & myself from hellfire.
  5. May Allah SWT protect my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & myself from any misfortune in this world.
  6. May Allah SWT bring my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & myself to Jannah.
  7. May Allah SWT guide my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & myself to the right path.
  8. May Allah SWT strengthen my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & my faith in HIM.
  9. May Allah SWT bless my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & myself with abundance wealth & blessings.
  10. May Allah SWT bless my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & my hearts & minds to be in good conscience always.
  11. May Allah SWT keep my parents, my family, my friends, my fellow Islamic brothers & sisters & myself in good health always.
  12. May Allah SWT allow my parents & my siblings to achieve their dream of performing the Haj while they are still healthy & have the money to do it.
  13. May Allah SWT bless my parents, my siblings, the rest of my family & my friends with long lives.
  14. May Allah SWT heal my nephew, Muhammad Uwais Salim Bin Muhammad Haiqal, & let him go back home as soon as possible.
  15. May Allah SWT bless me with loads of patience, think positive thoughts & not to get angry easily.
  16. May Allah SWT let me reach my goal of completing my Umrah on my 40th birthday in 2026.
  17. May Allah SWT give me the strength to like and progress in my new job.
  18. May Allah SWT bless me and let me get a house when I apply for the Bayshore BTO in June 2024.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.