I do not wish to say it to them as i'm afraid that i might accidentally curse it. I do not know why but i actually feel awkward towards all three relationships that just happen recently. It looks as if all the relationships would turn out well but at the back of my heart and mind, there is this disturbing feeling/thought that something is totally wrong. As if this is not the way things are supposed to happen. I am actually scared of the future for them. I'll just break down on who exactly i am referring to.
There's N, my closest friend ever. She just recently got into a relationship with a guy that is totally out of her criteria. It cames as a shock actually but i am trying my best to deal with it and make the best out of it unlike some of our friends. From my point of view, i know that the relationship is going to be very interesting but i am not sure whether is it going to be in a good way or a bad way. The guy has a rather refreshing point of view on relationships. He felt that they should be in a relationship with each other first, then explore each others' personalities, habits and etc. To me, it's more like arranged marriage. From what i know, some arranged marriage do actually work out in the long run. I really hope that it would really work out. The thing is our clique is rather uncomfortable with the relationship. One of us is even hellbent on making sure that they would break up. I mean, there is just so much that we can do to help N but eventually the rest would still be up to her. Some of us still doesn't understand that she really clicks very very well with the guy. Eventhough we want to protect her from getting hurt but the thing about N, she is oblivious to heartbreaks. She is like me in a way that, we think of relationships as trial and error. There is always something new to be learn from a screw-up relationship. If it turns out bad, she will just brush it off and move on. She doesn't mope around and regret that it happens. She is actually thankful that it happened as it would make her more stronger. So on behalf of her, girls, let's all just play nice and back off from her relationship. If you guys seem unhappy about it, FUCK OFF! I know i am unhappy about it but i am as sure as hell going to fuck myself off.
Next up is S. I am not even sure whether she is in a relationship with her guy or not. It seems that as if it has not been officialise yet but it is official. Anyway, her case, she is super duper scared of getting her heart broken. Eventhough she likes her guy alot, to me it is very obvious at times, she is so uncomfortable with him. I can't really place a finger on it but the feeling is just there. Up till now, she still doesn't grasp the concept that there is supposed to be heartbreaks in every relationship. She tries so hard to make sure that the relationship would work out so that she can protect her heart from getting hurt. There is only so much you can do, the rest is all up to the other party or the situation you are in. There are times, she just seem so unsure whether this is the relationship she wants or not. If the relationship is worth it. She thinks she is strong as us, seasoned bitches, but the thing is that we are so screwed up that we know that we can survived any stupid BGR heartbreaks. To me, she is not that strong. She is so naive and gullible like a total baby that we know she can't survive brutal honesty. All i know is that she needs to have as much fun as possible in the relationship. Don't be afraid, just continue exploring.
Lastly, we have M. Her case is just so... I'm speechless. She is just so in love. Too much in love if i have to say so myself. She is the type that will constantly be texting or calling the guy, just to know his whereabouts, his health and etc. She totally wants to show him everyday how much she loves him. She wants to be with him 24/7. She is practically obsessed about him. It's almost paranoia! At least, she is trying her best to control it. The thing that i am afraid to tell it to her face is that i think this might be puppy love rather than pure love. The fuck up thing about puppy love is that it dries up faster than the Sahara Desert. At least, she is not like me. I can practically get sick and tired of my guys within minutes. The only advice i can give her is to just go with the flow. Do not think too much, the more you think, the more paranoid you will get.
I wish all the girls, all the best in their respective relationships. May everything turn out wonderful for you girls. Love ya all!
So many problems in July...
