What exactly do you do when you know the truth?
Do you confront the person?
Do you just keep it to yourself?
Or do you just forget about it?
That's the thing about knowing the truth. I do know the truth regarding certain issues but to confront that certain someone, to me, personally, it is just plain pointless. If it has happen twice or thrice, maybe I can close my eyes and just ignore it. But it seems to happen over and over again that I just can't be bothered to even talk about it. It seems to happen to each and every one of them but not to me. My question is simple, why? But for him/her to answer that question would be almost impossible. One thing that i seriously hate about him/her is that he/she is quite a manipulative bastard/bitch. By the time I get an answer from him/her, I would have gone mad just trying to figure out his/her stories. Hey, I got to applaud him/her for being very so-called "creative" at telling stories. I got everybody telling me the same old thing, repeating to me endlessly. It is so stupid, crap and totally fuck-up! I'm just tired of all the drama that is going around.
It's kind of rather weird about being friends with him/her. Everybody, almost everyone that are friends with both of us don't really like him/her that much. As much as I want to distance myself from him/her, it's sort of hard when he/she kind of gotten clingy on my clique. Of lately, I noticed that as the days turns to weeks, all of us are practically maturing into different mindsets. It is almost impossible for us to actually sit down and just discuss on one topic. All we will ever do is practically joked and goofed around and in between, have this awkward painful silence that you could totally cut it with a butter knife. One-on-one coffee dates are being pre-planned secretly so that we can have our own time to bitch about one of us. At times, I realised that we really depend on each other too much that when one of us went missing, we will be at a lost as to what to do.
If last Friday's dinner was not plastic enough, ifah's birthday celebration was a force happiness between one another, make-over was plain awkward for some. I wonder how the future would be like? We really should just bloody take a break from each other and sort of meet up once or twice a month. From knowing everything about one another to practically keeping tons and tons of secret from each other. I can't believe the amount of secrets that I know from everyone. As much as I love being every one's secret-keeper, it's just that I rather people don't expect anything from other people.
Let's just keep it simple people, don't make complicated as it already is. I don't expect anything from you people but if you need anything at all, don't hesitate to reach out for me. I believe that friends comes and goes as and when they pleases. Nothing is forever in this world even when it comes to friendship. I'm not being pessimistic or whatever crap, I'm just being real and upfront about it.
To you know who you are. You actually avoided the topic when I brought it up the other time. I was tipsy but I was being fucking honest about the whole stupid situation. Never fucking ever would I ever want to step into the dance world anymore. It's stupid, crap, pointless, ridiculous and so much more insulting and degrading things that I can type out. You actually still insist that in the future, we could come back with a bang. As far as I am concerned, I am completely out from PHAT Inc, the dancers but PHAT Inc, the friends still live on. I'm sorry to break your heart and hurt you but as long as I'm being honest with myself that's all I care. It has been ages since I wanted to quit the dance world but you always manage to convince me to join back. Now that I am having a job and in some weird way, I'm loving it. I truly want to carve out something out of this job. Dancing and clubbing are practically the last thing on my mind now. And furthermore, I make a promise to myself to completely quit the dance scene.
I can still see that you have the passion for dance, so what exactly is stopping you? If it's me, then that is totally bullshit. You know it and I know it. You have join a few competitions alone and won prizes, so what's stopping you? If it's chemistry in PHAT Inc, please! You can never find our kind of chemistry in any other group. But that's the thing, as you grow older, you are supposed to adapt to changes. So now is the time for you to be a freelance dancer rather than talking to me about the stupid dance world that I have completely lost interest in. The only thing that I would ever be interested in would be flirting with Flair Nation's guys, Six Feet's men, SFB's gentlemen and maybe Freekzy Nutz's boys.
There, I have said my piece of mind. Truthfully speaking, I can bloody type out a whole lot more but I'm just too tired.
PS:
It was nice slacking with you and your friends.
I miss my boi.