Honestly speaking, for someone who is not working
I sure have a very busy schedule.
Ala socialite, a very broke socialite.
Every weekend, it seems that I always have plans.
Anyway, I just realise something.
Well, to me it is quite important.
I realise that now I know who are
the people that I need in my life
and the people that I want in my life.
I should just focus all my energy on
the people that I need and screw-it
with the people that I want. From
the looks of it, I have very few people
that I truly need in my life. Deep
down, I know that I would be nothing
without them.
So, to them, Thank you.
fyi, I'm not referring to you.
=)
How do you move on when deep down, your heart told you that, that person is the love of your life, your other half, your soulmate? While on the other hand, that person has actually move on with his/her life. Now you found out that he/she is engaged and truly happy. As the saying goes, "If you love someone, you would let them go and if they come back then they are meant for you." We did let them go, the only issue is that we never did get over them. On the outside, we put on a facade that we are alright and moving on with our wonderful life. Upon being alone, all the demons start coming back and banging on that bloody door. That's the fuck-up thing. How do we really move on from that? By hating them? By denying their existence? By doing what exactly?
Honestly speaking, I got no answers for those questions. I, myself, admit that I have never moved on from you but I have learnt to accept the truth. The truth is that you will never love me as much as you love her. I could never hate you, I could never deny your very existence. Some of the very best time of my life was being spent with you. I would never erase that memory. But do you have any idea that I am hurting badly down here seeing you so happy with her. After what I have been through with you, I admit that it wasn't perfect but it was truly beautiful while it lasted. I just didn't expect you to leave such a huge emotional void in me. I'll try my very best to be happy for you. Just so you know, i truly did love you. Still do. =]
fyi: it's not me...
Thank you for allowing
me to express myself
freely towards you.
Hell, it took me a lot of
courage but I am truly
happy that I let it all out.
PS: weba =)