The so-called start of a great 23rd birthday celebration.

=)

Potted-plants from the ladies' toilet at McDonald's.

Counter signage from Burger King's.

My shirts being returned back by Randy.

Crazy bunch of people.

The advanced clubbing outing.

More like as if we went pubbing.

Hell, it turned out to be a great night!

I had fun after so long.

Siblings/cousins/Bffs.

See those White Leather BlackHammer Slip-Ons.

An impromptu birthday gift from Q.

Now I just need to the shoes to be seasoned enough.

*grinning*

The airport gift surprise.

I was truly surprise.

I seriously love the pictures.

All of you guys look so sweet and innocent.

*giggling*

Thank you.

The birthday photo-shoot.

Damn! I look effing gorgeous.

Seriously, I am loving the pictures.

=D

One of the most sweetest and happiest moments of 2009.

Spend time with a bunch of new friends.

Felt as if I have known them for centuries.

It was nice.

Celebrating belated birthday at the chalet.

For the december babies.

The cake was really nice, though.

The last celebration.

Watch a performance by a string quartet.

Had dinner at Thai Express. Yummy!

Ate Kiwi & Honey Macdamian Nuts cookies from The Cookie Place.

Desert at Max Brenner Chocolate Bar.

Totally pure orgasm.

Hands Down! This year is by far the best birthday celebration I have ever had. My love ones constantly surprise me. I truly love every single moment I spend with them. Like the saying goes, "It's those little imprefections that make them perfect in my eyes." The one person that I hope to celebrate it with didn't manage to even go out with me at all. No matter what, I always have my dolls and munchkins to be there for me. Thank you to everyone who truly made this year a blast.

PS: Thank you. =)

Happy Birthday To Me...

Happy Birthday To Me...

Happy Birthday To Meeeeeeeeee...

Happy 23rd Birthday To Me...

Thanks lovelies for all the birthday wishes and gifts.

Thanks to [by order who wished me first]

Kak Sue...

Ayesha...

Kak Yatie...

Sham...

Nadia...

Ayis...

Zainol...

Khairul...

Netty...

Evefar...

Qayyum...

Azman...

Wan SFB... *giggling*

Dinie...

Leo...

Emma...

Ica...

Syima...

Haiqal...

Myzan...

Wanie...

Izzah...

Fasha...

Ayie...

Anis...

Azieera...

Q...

Emilia...

BBgal...

Noel... *giggling*

Kak Idah...

Aziz...

Yana...

Aien...

Kak Azian...

Khalqz...

Wanie...

Eylia...

Tag Pronite... *giggling*

Afeeq...

Bigd Tag...

Juliana...

Izhan...

Abg Aidil...

Haiqal...

Mynt...

Vani...

Faraq...

Zirah...

Affyq...

Adriana...

Najib...

Abg Satt...

Delly...

Nazmi...

Nur'aini...

Kak Ly...

Fauzi...

Nat...

Fareiz...

Mami...

Ayun...

B...

& lastly,

my jantan kelepeh, Don! *giggling*

PS: was hoping, but what's the point right?

The start of a so-called early celebration.

Totally loving it.

Unexpected and like what my cousin said, random.

Very random. *winks, winks*

*giggling*

My birthday gift!

Now I'm just stress out as to how am I going to drill a hole to hang the picture.

I have no idea on how to use the drill at all.

Anyway, thanks a lot dolls for the present.

I love it. *big huggs & sloppy kisses for everyone*

To think that I was sure we are celebrating my birthday this Saturday.

Hmph...

Silly me.

See those white shoes?

It's a gift from Q. =)

*giggling*

I know this is so going to be wrong but why am I having a full-blown so-called "missing you" moments? Seriously, how well did I manage to suppress my feelings for you? I am actually thinking of you at this very moment. The way you smile, the way you talk, the way you had a tendency to s***** without you realising it, the way you look into people's eyes when you talk to them, the way you pout your lips, the way you speak Malay is so endearing, the way you get excited when you want to share something and so much more. I am not supposed to think of you at all. This is supposed to be wrong but it feels so right.

Honestly speaking, why should I even worry about it? It's not as if you are going to even notice me at all. I am just a friend to you, someone who you confide in, nothing more, nothing less. Even though our perspective on love is so much alike and I know I can go far with you but it's just wishful thinking. And it's not as if I am not use to suppressing my feelings for guys that I fall for. A wish is a wish, nothing more. And I am entitled to dream of me and you right? That would be way much more fun. *kepiting*

I can't believe it but...

PS: "Falling for you" by Colbie Caillat

Screw it with the pictures.

I couldn't find a picture that really express what I'm feeling right now. I am so freaking tenene. WHY??? I feel like venting out my anger at something but I realise I got nothing. I feel like talking but I realise that you can't see from my point of view. I have always respected your decisions and back you as a person, but first and foremost as another human being of my equal. For you to actually say something like that in front of me, it is just so fucking plain rude. FUCK!!!!! I have constantly be at the brunt of your anger, frustrations and shits. I have been fucking patient with your fucking huge ego. I know that you will confirm have excuses for your actions but seriously, it is really getting fucking tiring and annoying to hear the same bullshits over and over again. I have reach the stage of screw it. Whatever happens just god damn fucking bloody happens. I don't give a shit about anything anymore. I am getting fucking tired of constantly putting up with your fucking ego. All you ever did was just prancing around in your fucking skimpy outfit and thinking you're all that. By all means, call me a loser, call me a weakling, call me all sorts of names and I'll gladly accept it with open arms. Because seriously, I am just god damn fucking bloody freaking forsaken tired. Tired of constantly having to boost your fucking humongous ego and putting you up on your pedestal so that you can fucking look down on me. Hate me by all means, i wouldn't mind it at all, I'll be more that happy to oblige towards your hatred for me. I have had enough of your shits, had enough of cleaning your fucking shits. I don't mind letting all my efforts go down the fucking monsoon canal at all. Try putting yourself in my fucking stupid CottonOn shoes and see if you can even fucking survive my life in just one week. I'm expecting you to commit suicide in less that 5 days flat. I can't be bothered about it anymore. If we grew apart or even cut ties, let it be and if in the future, we do get back in contact, WHATEVER FUCK AH SIAK!!!

Let's just break-up, what's the point of staying together when I know fully well that I've changed and so did you.

Bye.

PS: *sobbing silently to sleep*

"Happy" by Leona Lewis

[Verse 1:]
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

[Chorus:]
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

[Verse 2:]
Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

[Chorus:]
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

[Bridge:]
So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

[Chorus:]
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

[Outro:]
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

PS: I just wanna be happy.

If Love is complicated then friendship would most likely be weird.

I just realise that in order to maintain your clique, you will lie, bitch, back-stab, manipulate and do all sorts of shits just to make sure that your so-called friends will back you up and trust you fully. I could not believe my ears when I heard from a friend of yours claiming that we hate your girlfriend that much. Being a so-called concerned friend, I ask your friend about your own well-being. The way that your friend was updating me was rather discomforting actually. I realise that there were cracks in the so-called truth that you told him. I just kept it to myself and didn't want to pursue the matter anymore. I don't see a point at all when you no longer regard me as a friend or even an acquaintance at all. I know I said that I do not want to pursue the issue at all but there is just this nagging voice at the back of my head that feels the need to type down everything. Furthermore, it's not like you're going to read my blog when you practically rejected my friend request at FaceBook thrice.

It takes two hands to clap and I have been clapping my own hand against the wind for almost a year and a half still hoping that you will be my friend. Never did realise that your ego is really that big. I don't want to be evil but who the fuck cares. I just pray that one fine day you will find out that the girl of your dreams has actually been engaged to another guy for almost 5 years and that they are getting married around the middle of next year. I do not know how you are going to handle the issue but I'm just praying and wishing your all the luck in the world. I guess that's what would happen when your ego is really humongous, your brain have a tendency to shrink to the size of a pea.

But let me clear this up with you, I'm willing to accept you back as my friend no matter what happen and I am truly sorry for whatever I have done to you in the past and hope that you will find it in your heart to forgive me and forget the whole thing and let's start afresh.

On to other topic, isn't it obvious that you're not welcome at all.

Anyway, so here I am at home on a saturday morning, was supposed to go KL but both yana and haiqal couldn't get off from work. Now, I'm going to get bored to death sitting at home.

PS: You're so sweet.

Verbal or physical abuse.

Physical,
Time would heal the wounds.
There is such a thing as medicine to heal the open wounds.
Physical wounds would get heal,
sooner or later...

Verbal,
Is there such a thing as a medicine for it?
It's going to take a long time to heal or maybe for life.
Verbal wounds are much more harder to cope with.
it still hurts...

PS: Not in the mood.

Why do people like to subconsciously find trouble or create drama without realising it?

There is a saying that goes, "Don't find trouble unless trouble finds you". Seriously speaking, how many people actually do even follow the saying at all. It seems nowadays that more and more people including moi seem to find trouble just for the sake of finding it. It seems to be getting out of control over the past few weeks. Everyone seems to be having a little bit of issue with each other and when you actually find out the cause of the agitation, you will actually go completely speechless or completely berserk.

Are we trying to get as much drama out of our body system because the fasting month is coming or do we secretly enjoy creating drama in our life? As much as people say that drama is crap and so totally high school, drama will always be part of our daily chores. Drama is totally and completely unavoidable unless you are a submissive person. When you have a group of head-strong, independent and opinionated people in a clique, drama is a must. Unless you know how to be behind the scenes and pull the correct strings to avoid as much drama as possible.

The number one rule to avoid trouble or drama from my point of view, is to be the person with the bigger heart and just walk away from the crap. What I don't understand is why do people always feel the urge to have the final say in everything? I mean, when you already know that you are diving in a situation with a fiercely verbal person. Is it so hard to let that person have the final say eventhough you know that you are right while that person is completely wrong. I mean, sooner or later, people are bound to know that the person did make a mistake and he/she would eventually embarassed themselves to everyone else. Indirectly, wouldn't you be the one having the final say or rather laugh should the situation be like it.

I don't understand certain people who completely dives in to a situation without knowing what is the brief background of the situation. It is totally stupid as you will only make a fool out of yourself. For me, I rather investigate the whole situation and see from all points of view and attack without anyone realising. I prefer it that way, quiet and suttle but you still get the job done and at least ten times better.

As much as I don't like it, but i really have to admit that I live for drama. Without drama or trouble in my life, my life would be completely mundane and stagnant. But at times, it can get really stressful to handle when all the dramas come to you at the same time from every direction. At times, part of me wishes that we can be honest with each other but then I realise that sometimes honesty are the sole reasons as to why people are farther apart from each other.

I just hope that we will be alright with each other. I know we will be.

PS: I want to kiss him.

guys that i am randomly missing.

Guys that I am totally and purely randomly missing.

Just kind of miss them.

LOL!

I miss Abang Azli.

Well, let's just say that he is like uber hot! =)

I miss Aimm.

He's a nice guy but he is still a major big time jackass! I still miss him though.

I miss Alif

I'm not sure if I'm entitled to miss him but who cares?

I miss this bumbling rabies infected idiot!

I miss Ayan.

I know I don't talk much but I sort of do miss his silent presence around me.

So weird.

I miss Azeer.

Big time jackass! Major sweetheart!

You got to love this guy.

I miss Azman.

I love this asshole! 'Nuff said.

I miss Azree.

Sarcastic Bastard!

I miss Fadhli.

Like really big time!

All he ever does is just smile!

=p

I miss Hardy.

He's effing cute but too bad.

We look good together!

AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I miss K Kay.

I love hugging him and just staring at him.

Don't even bother asking me why.

I miss Keith.

My so-called brother.

Always protect me from everyone and whoever that fucks me!

Love him!

I miss Raizal.

Yes, surprisingly I do miss him.

Because he can actually take my stupid crap quite well.

I miss Syariff.

Total big time himbo!

I miss Zul.

Seriously speaking, I'm not even close to him at all.

But he is just so fucking hot!

And he loves to stare and smile at me.

Major idiot!

I miss Zulhaidi.

Love him and Miss him loads!

PS: Job-hunting.

KL Trip

Just let the pics explain everything. I'm sort of lazy to write it down. Bottomline, I have a god damn effing fun time at KL!

PS: I'm feeling a lil' bit lost...