No, off course I'm not okay.
I know what you said is
totally right but honestly speaking, how
do I go about fighting it.
It's a fact that in that
whole stretch of period, I never
ever did fight it at all.
I know myself, I am never
the one to lead.
I am and will always be
the one that is behind the leader.
I am always the
second in command.
I have my own theory about
being the second in command.
I'll tell you one fine day, I
obviously can't type it down
here, people have a tendency
to ask.
Furthermore, I never
believe it fighting, it never gets
you anywhere at all.
To top it off, I know it's weird
but I believe in the power and
miracles of prayers.
I know it's wrong but I honestly
don't mind if people were to step
on my head over and over again
because I'm a true blue firm
believer in Karma and I honestly
and truly pray to God that Karma
would seriously bite them in their
asses.
Trust me when I say that I'll be there
to laugh at them when it truly
happens to them.
You know that I will always have
your back but trust me when I
say that you don't have to worry
about it.
You already have enough to worry
about.
I'll find my own way in life even if
it would take me to my deathbed.
I'm going to be ok.
Thank you for worrying about me.
I am taking my own sweet time to
figure out my life.
I am in no rush.
I got no deadline.
I know it's wrong but hell, I want to be
happy with what I'm doing that's why
I am where I'm at right now.
I understand that your intention is
good but honestly speaking, just let
me worry about myself.
At times, I honestly can't be bothered
about my life but that's me.
One more thing that you make me realise,
you can't make everybody happy.
Bottomline, just make sure that
you're happy with where you are
in your life right now.
Truthfully speaking, I am not really
fully happy with where I am right now
but I'm just trying my best to make do
what is being thrown to me.
I can no longer waste my time on
breaking down every now and then.
I got to either fake my way through
it all or just become hollow, void of all
emotions.
Either way is much more easier than
breaking down.
Just to tell you, I'm almost on the
brink of insanity but my fakeness
or my hollowness, either one of
them is keeping me sane.
Just like what you said, ignorance
could honestly be a blessing.
But having been very observant for a
better part of your life, it is honestly
quite hard to be ignorant.
PS: Thank you, CW
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