Balance

Maybank (Semester 1 of Degree)

Loan: $10,100 (inclusive of interest)

Paid: $7,850

Balance: $2,250

Mendaki (Semester 2 of Degree)
Loan: $4,900
Paid: $4,900
Balance: $0

CPF (Year 1, Semester 1 of Diploma)
Loan: $1,916.07 (inclusive of interest)
Paid: $1,700
Balance: $216.07

Savings (Paris Trip - 2018)
Amount: $5,000
Saved: $500
Balance: $4,500

In Shaa' Allah.

Rejection

Women's Tennis Association, Closing Ceremony - 28th & 29th October

Tour Facilitator for Events Artery - 10th till 12th November

DHL's Asia Cup - 22nd till 27th November

Christmas Wonderland - 13th November till 12th January

ZoukOut 2017 - 7th till 10th December

I had to reject 5 freelance jobs because I got a full-time job.

I feel a tad uneasy.

I have no idea why.

I hate this feeling.

I am trying.

New Job

I got the job.

Officer, Finance & Admin for National Heritage Board under Preservation Of Sites & Monuments Department.

It's a 1-year contract.

They met my asking price.

It's roughly the same as my previous job with additional stuffs.

Job Scope

• Providing administrative support for the National Monuments Fund (NMF) & Tax Exemption Scheme (TES)
• Assist the Monument Inspectorate Team in verifying submissions & process fund disbursement for the NMF
• Manage applications & disbursement of funds under TES
• Assist in related liaison, filing & documentation work
• Process invoices & administer petty claims
• Provide administrative support for PSM public programmes, travelling, exhibitions & PSM advisory Board matters
• Personal assistant to Director of PSM. This includes diary management, booking of flights as & when necessary, & preparing paperwork for the Director
• Assist with any other ad-hoc duties assigned by supervisor

I need to convince myself for the sake of going to Paris in December 2018 for my birthday.

I need to do this.

I can do this.

I will do this.

In Shaa' Allah

Wedding

 

I have no idea how I do it.

But I am always able to make any happy celebration into a sad memory.

The wedding was a blast.

I handle it like a pro.

Then it dawned upon me that it's the only wedding that I would ever be the maid-of-honor.

I don't have any more close friends that are getting married.

I guess that's what happens when you keep your circle small & tight.

I had fun though, that's what matters.

Guilt

Job interview with National Heritage Board, last Friday.

Job interview with Kaplan Singapore, next Tuesday.

Women's Tennis Association, Opening Night - 17th, 19th & 20th October

Christmas Wonderland - 13th November till 12th January

My heart feels heavy.

I feel uncertain.

I feel guilty for desperately wanting to pursue my happiness.

I feel guilty for not meeting up to my own expectations.

I feel guilty for putting my sanity a priority.
I feel guilty for not making my parents feel proud of me.
I feel guilty for constantly questioning every decision that I made.
I feel guilty for not being able to be a better person.
I feel guilty for failing every single day.
I feel guilty for not being decisive enough when it comes to it.
I feel guilty for being unsure of what I want in life.
I feel guilty for not being having the confidence in myself.
I feel guilty for feeling guilty.

In Shaa' Allah, HE will guide me to the correct path.
I need to never lose my faith in HIM.