popularity...

im actually popular...
ahaha...
i wld nvr say tat im famous...
if i m, the whole of singapore wld have known me...
the thing bout it is tat...
eversince i cld remember...
i've always wanted to be tat some1 tat every1 knows...

since kindergarden...
i have always wanted to be the popular kid tat every1 envys...
who have everything tat he cld ever asked for...

in primary school...
i was the nobody...
i was a geek in specs...
every1 walk right thru me...
no1 notices me xcept for my close frenz...
i watch in envy as my frenz make frenz with kids from other classes...
while i was confined to making frenz within my class...
i was terrified at not being accepted for who i m...

in secondary school...
i was just an average guy...
still a nerd...
but i was coming out wit my sexuality...
but people noticed me for my work & my mouth...
i had a tendency to just continuously blabber my mouth off...
which was kinda of cool...
but i was nvr in the popular crowd...
i was just an extra...

in ite
i nearly became the popular kid...
but nvr was...
i was comfortable wit myself being gay...
so was some of my frenz...
so was my god sis...
i was always wit her...
we always go everywhere together...
she, being drop-dead gorgeous...
people noticed her off course...
me?
i was always referred to as...
"the guy who wears specs & catwalks with ica"
every1 labelled me as that...
so screw up...

nw in ns...
im known as the gay boy of tekong...
every1 noes me...
the weird thing is tat every1 accepts me for who i m...
every storemen noes me...
every RP noes me...
every driver noes me...
the whole of PT SSU noes me...
most of the perm staff noes me too...
the whole of Leopard company noes me...
same goes for Gryphon...
thanks to casey for tat...
other than tat, most of the recruits don't know me...
my reputation for being gay excedes me...
im not even sure im supposed to be happy bout it...
i noe its what i have always wanted...
but now?
im not so sure animore...
im not sure as to whether they r laughing with me or at me...

popularity is a two way thing...
it cld be good...
bt at the same time,
itz horrible...

nw, itz both...
bt im beginning to hate it more & more as the days passed by...