Bugging Me

One of my close friends from Thailand, came over to Singapore for the weekend. We decided to meet up since it has been so long since I last caught up with her. I mean, we only leave comments on each other's Facebook pages or will randomly text each other once in a blue moon.

Anyway, something that she said had got me thinking for the past few days.

We were updating each other about our jobs. Then I was telling her how I think that I am fated to be a PA for life and contemplating if I should be a certified PA.

Because in my head, I sort of pondered over another friend's advice. He was telling me that since I'm good at being a PA, I should switch to a private international company and be a PA for one of the higher management. Then from there, if I do a really good job and am loyal, and lets say if the director gets a job overseas, there's a good chance of the director bringing me along. That's kind of my fall-back plan.

I mean let's be realistic here. It's damn hard to get a full-time job in the events industry if you don't understand or speak Chinese.

So anyway, she got annoyed that I am still stuck at not doing what I love to do. She was going on and on about how I know how to take charge of a situation and am able to perform under pressure. She said that everybody has a choice to make. It's either you accept where you are or you continued fighting for what you love to do.

It kind of got stuck in my head for the past few days. It feels weird to hear someone telling me that I have given up. I mean, I know that I have given up doing events full-time that's why I'm only doing it once in awhile just to keep my brain alive. But to hear someone saying it to my face, I feel as if I am really sacrificing my interest for the long run. I mean, I know that I am, it's because I want to survive in Singapore but honestly speaking, in the long run, I do know I want to do events.

I don't know, it's just bugging me.