fun, fun, fun & more fun...

so...im just gonna make tis a quick one ah...since my frenz laptop is so gonna go flat any time soon...

on thursday, lepak with izhan, frazze, shaz n min...they were the 1st to wish me happie bdae...awww...so swit...hehehe...ahahaha...

on fridae, it was kinda of cock up ah...i was late for my own celebration...kinda of ridiculous...it was kinda of my biggest fear to be late for my own celebration...total irony tat it actually came true...haiz...but at least i had fun, all my dancers were there, all fucking 15 or izzit 20 of us??? i also lost count...
den saw Q, milin, eylia, aili n rizal....with a cake...so, i celebrate with them ah...& as usual, they sabotage me...haiz...

niwae, the next day, went clubbing at MOS with izhan, frazze, didi, miah, ina & suzy...it was kinda of lame ah...the music seriously sucks big time...but at ard, 1.30am, den the music pick up...totally dance lyke crazy...njoyed myself totally...had lots of fun....den aft tat me & izhan discuss bout our dance formation...kinda of cool...

sundae was a relaxing day...jus slack ard at hm...

mondae, went to sentosa...had lots of crazy wild fun...love it seh...took lots n lots of pics...bt seriously tired lyke hell ah...

g2g ah...going for dance practice...

till nxt time...

oooooooooo...

Once again, I went back late from work. I am so tired. At least, a stranger make my day. I had dinner at Mac with my collegue just now, then this tall guy with blonde hair bumped into me. At that time, I was just tired and pissed off about my work, so this stranger kind of pissed me off. When I turned around to give him my so-called pissed off look, he turned to apologize and smile at me. On the spot, I froze! It was like "OMIGOD!!!". He is fucking drop-dead gorgeous! He is tall, has a nice body (can see the chest & biceps at the correct places), flawless complexion, pink lips, blueish-green eyes, straight blonde hair and cute butt! He is like totally perfect to me! I so had orgasm on the spot. ARGH!!! My "Mr. Perfect" and I have no idea who he is. This is so sad but at least I bump into him today. Hoping I would bump into him again tomorrow.

*crossing my fingers & praying like crazy*

stress & total fun !!!

This week has been total chaos for me. We had to prepare for the trial run of Rocky Hill Campsite & SanYongKong Camp by Friday morning. I had to prepare all the paper work while the rest had to do the hard labour. They were phsically worn out while I was mentally drained. Everyday, from Monday to Thursday, I reach home late. Totally bumped out. Then when Friday came, we were about to begin. We realise that everything was all wrong. The information that we had gotten was all wrong. The countless hours I spent doing all the paper work every single night was all wrong. All my efforts went down the drain. I totally had another breakdown. ARGH! Nearly go crazy from all this stress. Now, we have to concentrate on the real thing which is gonna happen in less that two weeks time.

Anyway, I was practically looking forward to DeepaRaya last night. I totally had loads of fun. The food kinda taste like crap. But the emcee & the games were totally fun. I can't believe it but I had to dress up as a lady for the pageant "Ms DeepaRaya 06". And I lost the title. Kinda of pissed off actually. At least I get to take pictures with my flings.


=> mE & khAlId <=


=> mE & pIE <=


=> mE & AzrEE, hIlArI0Us gUy <=


=> mE & nIk, prEtty In pInk <=


=> mE & fEndI, t0tAlly h0rny bUt fUn gUy <=


=> mE & SSG hAssAn <=


=> mE & 1SG fAIrUs, my bIg bEAr <=


=> mE & hAIkAl, mA fAv <=

1st fite...

hmph!
What is exactly wrong with you huh?
I thought that we are just friends.
And furthermore you are already attached to a girl!
I find it kind of stupid & silly that you need to be so over-protective with me.
I do know how to take care of myself.
This is total bullshit and uncalled for.
You are pissed off at me because I am slowly falling for someone else.
If I remember correctly, you are the one who told me that we are just friends. Nothing more, nothing less.
Now, it seems to me that you are jealous.
What the fuck is your problem?
I can't believe this is happening at all.
Nevermind...
Just talk to me whenever you feel like talking.
And I know that you read my blog every week.

so sweet of you...

It was really nice of you. Totally unexpected since we are not even close at all & you are straight ( I think ). What you did was what any guy would do to his love one. Furthermore, we rarely talk at all. So I was kind of shocked by your actions but at the same time, I'm on cloud nine because of it. So thank you very much for making my week. Of course, I'm hoping that you would be with me but I'm happy as long as we are friends. Not expecting anything from it. Thanks alot!

on cloud nine...

he called me "sayang"...OMIGOD!!! my heart skipped a beat & my face blushed like crazy...like a freaking baboon's ass...hehehe...

still blushing!!!

so much anger & sadness...

i nvr did realise it...but i seriously have lots of anger & sadness bottled up in me...for the past few weeks...i jus feel alot of hatred to pratically all my frenz...i kinda of hate them for nearly everything...especially my collegues...one of them in particular...everytime i see him, feel like i jus wanna take an axe & chopped him up into a million pieces & jus feed him to the wild boars in tekong...then, there's the other asshole who lyke constantly getting off...buat keje tak seberapa...mintak off melebih-lebih...wat a fucking fat asshole...got another idiot who can't be ordered around...a psychopath in the waiting...an officer who is a major pain in my butt...i dunnoe...i jus kinda of feel angry at every1 around me...i feel angry at them for ignoring me...i feel angry at them for talking to me...i jus dunt even noe wat going on wit me rite nw...for the past few weeks i feel all sorts of emotions cuming back...i totally feel my mind shut down at werk...almost everyday...its like i feel as if i wake up everyday with nothing in my skull xcept for cobwebs & dusts...den b4 i noe it, i wld jus feel sad...not for ani1...but for myself...i sympathize myself for reasons i dare not say...ah, screw it...i tink i m too naive & patient for my own good...i tink tat every1 is stepping over my head...i dunnoe how to xplain it but ya, tatz how i feel...i dunnoe...i jus feel lost again...

my drawings...

jus decided to put up my drawings...
drew them whenever i feel a strong emotion overcoming me...
i shocked tat i can even draw at all...
ahahaha...
here's my crappy drawings...

my crushes...

hmmm...
i kinda of got lots of crushes in tekong...
since im like always there 24/7...
haiz...
constantly daydreaming down there...
& everydae see my crushes...
hehe...
but out of all my crushes...
onli 6 of them tat i can nvr get over...

zAkI => mr. cUtE
my 1st crush...
the 1st time i saw him was during my BMT at 'Leopard'...
i didn't even noe tat he was a sergeant there...
he look so cute...
very mummy's boy...
ahaha...
found out he was a sergeant for another platoon...
aft my BMT, i got posted to tekong...
den grew closer to him...
always tease & talk rubbish wit me...
& i kept calling him 'kiki'...
everytime bump into him, he wld count hw many days he left before he ord...
nw, he is clearing his leave...
kinda of miss his chubby cheeks, his accent & his crappiness...


h0snI => mr. pErfEct
my biggest crush ever!!!
i just think tat he is lyke perfect in everyway...
he is lyke tall...
has a cute butt...
average body...
sexy goatee...
gorgeous face...
wicked tattoos...
charming personality...
he is lyke a major turn-on for me...
everytime i see him, i blush lyke crazy...
which is lyke everydae since me & him r in the same dept...
hehehe...
can have orgasm just tinking bout him...
oh ya, huge balls...[ accidentally grabbed them ]
but he is now in prison...
major idiot !!!


khAIrUl => mr. h0t
he is from 'Viper' coy...
the storeman...
actualli saw him b4 at ite tamp...
oreadi got a huge crush on him back then...
fate brought us together...
ahahaha...fucking crap!!!
niwae,
he is lyke so hot!
gorgeous body...
washboard abs...
cute butt...
super duper fair!
& very metrosexual...
love flirting wit him...
he is lyke my part-time lover...
everytime i see him, i jus melt...
loves hugging him...
hey! he allows it...
ahahaha....


hAIkAl => mr. prEtty
i have a huge crush on him bcoz of his smile...
i jus think tat he has the most perfect smile ever...
& he is a gentleman...
very sweet & polite...
always talks to me nicely...
kinda of weird ah...
but im not complaining...
hehe...
& he has a flawless face...
its lyke so friggin clean...
no pimples, no scars, no acnes...
& he is lyke fucking fair!
lyke the male version of snow white...
i jus love staring at him...
so pretty...
can never get tired of staring at him...
alas, we rarely talk...


hElmI => mr. sExy
everyting bout him is just sexy...
everytime i see him...
all i can tink bout is making love to him...
he is lyke a friggin sex machine...
just slot in some loose change...
& let him do the rest...
everytime he holds my waist or my hands or hugs me...
i get erection...
if he was ever to strip in front of me...
i wld have a friggin orgasm for weeks or months...
aaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!


shEIkh => mr. g0rgE0Us
he is 'Pegasus' clerk...
thot he was a sergeant at first...
he has the most gorgeous face in tekong...
he don't look lyke a singaporean at all...
there is lyke a mixture of middle-east & europe in him...
so handsome...
his facial features are lyke perfect...
so gorgeous...
i cld just drop dead by looking at it...
but nah, i did not...
still survive...
never did talk to him before...
but his company storemen noes tat i have a crush on him...
always teasing him...
pity him...
ahaha...

how i wish that either one of them wld be my boyfriend...
but all of them are straight...
so fucked up! i always fall for straight guys...
dunnoe y so cocked up!

popularity...

im actually popular...
ahaha...
i wld nvr say tat im famous...
if i m, the whole of singapore wld have known me...
the thing bout it is tat...
eversince i cld remember...
i've always wanted to be tat some1 tat every1 knows...

since kindergarden...
i have always wanted to be the popular kid tat every1 envys...
who have everything tat he cld ever asked for...

in primary school...
i was the nobody...
i was a geek in specs...
every1 walk right thru me...
no1 notices me xcept for my close frenz...
i watch in envy as my frenz make frenz with kids from other classes...
while i was confined to making frenz within my class...
i was terrified at not being accepted for who i m...

in secondary school...
i was just an average guy...
still a nerd...
but i was coming out wit my sexuality...
but people noticed me for my work & my mouth...
i had a tendency to just continuously blabber my mouth off...
which was kinda of cool...
but i was nvr in the popular crowd...
i was just an extra...

in ite
i nearly became the popular kid...
but nvr was...
i was comfortable wit myself being gay...
so was some of my frenz...
so was my god sis...
i was always wit her...
we always go everywhere together...
she, being drop-dead gorgeous...
people noticed her off course...
me?
i was always referred to as...
"the guy who wears specs & catwalks with ica"
every1 labelled me as that...
so screw up...

nw in ns...
im known as the gay boy of tekong...
every1 noes me...
the weird thing is tat every1 accepts me for who i m...
every storemen noes me...
every RP noes me...
every driver noes me...
the whole of PT SSU noes me...
most of the perm staff noes me too...
the whole of Leopard company noes me...
same goes for Gryphon...
thanks to casey for tat...
other than tat, most of the recruits don't know me...
my reputation for being gay excedes me...
im not even sure im supposed to be happy bout it...
i noe its what i have always wanted...
but now?
im not so sure animore...
im not sure as to whether they r laughing with me or at me...

popularity is a two way thing...
it cld be good...
bt at the same time,
itz horrible...

nw, itz both...
bt im beginning to hate it more & more as the days passed by...

you said 'hi!'

for the 1st time ever u actualli said hi to me...
ever since i got posted to tekong...
u nvr ever said anything to me at all...
not even the occasional smile...
i thot u were juz quiet or sumting...
but yesterdae,
it was juz weird...
1stly, u said hi...
den u smile at me the whole day...
& u sat beside me during our AO meeting...
aft the meeting, u opened the door for me...
tat was when i seriously find u disturb...
i noe tat u have heard rumors bout me having a crush on u...
but tat was lyke ages ago...
so watz up wit the nice gestures?

den 2dae...
during live run...
u cheered me on & u teased me...
hmmm...
me being myself...
tease u back & beat u...
den i realised...
y the fuck did i do tat to u?
aft the run...
u actualli came up to me & tried to strike a conversation wit me...
aft lunch...
u called my office twice juz to ask me sumting...
but i wasnt in...
at tat time, i was on my way to ur office...
reach there & u ask me to check my mail knowing well enough that my mail acc hav not been activated...
& u actualli tried to make a joke...
so so wrong...
ahaha...
thus, making me calling u back & forcing me to go back to ur office again...

itz juz so weird...
too many smiles...
but dunt tink anything is gonna happen at all...
im so not gonna xpect anything at all...

[ PS:but it would be kinda of cool ]

aint sure yet...

met up wit him juz nw...he came down to my place...shockingly...plz...he stay lyke in the west side siak...came down juz to talk to me for lyke an hour ajer...itz weird...but i dunt tink im ready yet...gotz to wait for a few more daes ah...hehe...

nitey-nite =p

hArd r0ck cAfE...

so yesterdae was Q nyer bdae...ahahaha...kinda of giler lah smlm...everything was unplanned...it was kinda of cock up lah...aft much discussions & talking rubbish...in the end, we went to hard rock cafe...

it was juz me, eylia, milin & Q...& it was our 1st time going there & itz reggae nite...so pretty much was juz ok2...went in ard 12 midnite...then went out back...chill & drink at mac...ard 1am den we go back in...ouh crap...i juz saw too many pple tat noes me siak...everywhere got pple recognize me...even in the toilet siak...ahahahha...but overall, had fun lah...eventhou the crowd was all mat rep & minah rep....oh ya, there was a fite...too bad did not get to see it...haiz...niwae, was shock tat it close at bout 3am...so early leh...haiz...

took 65m hm...reach tamp ard 4am...reach hm den i fall asleep...hehehe...

[ 0Ut 0f t0pIc ]
i shld hav nvr told u at all...i noe u r wit ur love one...but i cldnt help myself...i juz wanted to ease myself...i did not noe telling u would make u even more confused...im sorie...niwae, i oreadi told u to take care of ur love one...im cool as long as we remain frenz...till den, take care aite...

fAmE 5 chA|Et

.::][ m0ndAE, 03042006 ][::.

so god damn freaking excited siak!!! meet Q at ard 11.30am...took a cab to milin's place...slack awhile at his place then ard 2pm we went out...seriously speaking, we had a lot of food & other stuffs siak...ahahaha...we reach ard 2.30pm lyke tat ah...had trouble trying to get our key...y? bcoz they require the original ic...so screw up seh...niwae, Q tok 2 them...5 mins ltr we got the key...den we went to our chalet...

damn!!! it was fucking huge siak!!! itz onli 20 dollars a nite & itz god damn bloody freakingly fucking huge!!! totalli worth it...the 3 of us xplore the whole place...hehehe...it is totalli huge!!! we put our stuffs...prepare everything..hehehe...did our facials, den we juz slacked ard...waiting for eylia, adi, didi & her fren, mamat to arrived...it was kinda of a private event on our 1st nite...juz the few of us...

adi reach ard 7pm, didi & her fren reach ard 6pm & as usual, eylia is the last one to arrived...she reach ard 8plus like tat...hehehehe...had so much fun...barbequing food, talking rubbish, doing silly stuffz & teasing each other...ahahah...itz been awhile since the 5 of us loosen up like tis...ard 10.30pm, didi & mamat went off..

ard midnite, we stop bbq...we went inside to watch 'Pontianak Menjerit'...we watch the 1st disc...had fun...den atf tat we went to changi village...to get strepsils for milin's throat...look at the bapoks...hehehe...sum of them r quite gorgoeus aite...aft tat, we went to the beach while milin went back 1st...while we were slacking at the beach, milin called us & told us to get back faster...y? he was scared...ahahahah...niwae, we continue watching the movie...

aft tat, it was ard 3 in the morning...we watch sum of adi's porn vcd...& damn! adi has bad taste in gurls...ahahha...most of his porn videos r totalli hilarious to us siak...sum of them r juz plain dumb...hehehe...totalli crappy...niwae, aft watching it...we went up...had a quick bathe...den played taiti..& talk shit till bout 6 in the morning...den we fall asleep...ahaha...


.::][ tUEsdAE, 04042006 ][::.

ard 9am all of us woke up...had breakfast...den talk crap again... eylia went home ard 12pm...we watch 'Anak Mami Kembali'...a totalli stoopid show! aft tat den adi went off ard 2pm...to get sum stuffs...while the 3 of us...juz slack ard...i was walking ard in the house juz wearing my undies...hehhee...juz slack ard...den, i was bored & pretend to play the helpless victim in the house...i switch off all the lights...& walk ard carrying a scissors...ahahhaa...den we were bored...we played dressed up...omigod! it took nearly an hour juz to get milin ready...so troublesome leh...ahahha...had fun, catwalking here, there & everywhere...

den ard 6 plus, fatin reach....ard 7 plus, den mars, ayun & ifah reach...ahahaha...once there reach, smuer dah jadi giler...me & Q started the fire...ard 8pm den adi reach...once adi reach, we started bbq...hehehe...ifah, ayub & mars were practically doing crazy stuffz...singing...dancing...screaming...acting lyke crazy pple siak...ahahaha...eylia arrived ard 9pm...she brought sum more of milin's burger...ahahaha....ard 9.30pm....fatin's frenz arrived...naz & afiq...den we juz chill & talk rubbish...ard 10.30pm, ayun & ifah went off...den ard 11.30pm aru lak fatin went off...

ard 12 midnite, the rest of us, me, adi, Q, milin, eylia, mars, naz & afiq decided to go to OCH...blum masuk jer, & there was trouble...Q fall...we were all wondering hw the hell did she trip...really weird...& my digicam fall wit her...haiz...niwae, we took care of her den we continue in ah...pretty much ok ah...me & Q totalli did not see or feel anything at all...but the rest of them manage to xperience sum stuffz...hehehe...we bump into another grp...had fun scaring the shit out of them...ahahahha...aft tat,we joined them for awhile onli...den we separated frm them back...we finish xploring the 1st 2 blocks..so we went out for a smoke...den decided to go back it...but afiq & adi saw a huge black figure...& every1 here scratching noises xcept for me...hehehehe...

in the end, we return back to our chalet...milin & adi stay back while the rest of us went to changi...omigod!!! afiq is totalli whacked out siak...he pretended to b a male prostitute...he wave at cars & cabs & asking them to hav sex wit him...ahahaha...den we saw sum bapoks...afiq talk to sum of them...den we went to the carpark...one of the bapoks tot tat i stare at her...so she kinda of told us tat she got a surprise ah...& damn she walks fast...in the end, we all run...ahahaha...

we slowly make our way back to the chalet...we reach there ard 3 plus...we look at the pics tat Q took at OCH...found sum stuffz...den aft tat we went up & slacked upstairs..xcept for adi...he was watching soccer...we all had a quick bathe...xcept for naz & afiq...naz was scared to bathe alone...ahahha...aft tat, all of us did our facials...we played taiti & talk crap...till bout 5 plus...

i cld nt take it, i dozed off...i tink they doxed off ard 7am lyke tat...ard 9am i woke up...found out tat naz & afiq had went off...den, 10mins later, adi went off...we cleaned up the chalet...ard 10.30am the person came over to check the chalet...took sum last pics...den we went off...milin & eylia went home 1st...den me, mars & Q chilled by the beach...& b4 we noe it, the 3 of us were actualli sleeping on the benches...hehhee...ard 2pm we woke up & make our way back hm...i reach home ard 3 plus....

overall, seriously one of my moz memorable event ever...thanx guyz for making tis possible...love u guyz...

ouch...

in the wee morning, i was xcited...y? im having a dental appointment...dunt ask me y, but i juz got xcited bout it...omigod! the waiting was totalli killing me...oh ya...u noe wat? i got my upper right wisdom tooth pulled out...hehehe...so fascinated by hw big my tooth is...hehehe...nw, i got 2daes mc...so happie...den, nxt 2 wks gonna pull out my bottom rite wisdom tooth...hehehe...

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