Confused

Got a job interview with National Heritage Board for tomorrow.

Officer, Finance & Admin, 1 year contract.

Got another confirmed event for Christmas Wonderland.

It's for 2 months from 13th November 2017 until 12th January 2018.

I'm confused.

I'm not sure if I'm ready for a full-time job yet 

or

if I should continue doing freelance until end of the year.

I'm loving the freedom & flexible that I am having right now.
Money is tight.
Though it makes me thankful because it forces me to be creative.
It forces me to concentrate on the things that I love.
I can concentrate on my writings.
I can concentrate on my drawings.
I can concentrate on my freelance event jobs.

It's just that I don't have the stability to survive in Singapore.

In Shaa' Allah, He will guide me to the correct path.

Alone

The cousin is soon-to-be engaged to the close friend.

The other close friend has her family to take care of.

Another close friend is staying in Jurong West.

She's getting married soon & is still quite wild.

Another close friend is all the way in United Kingdom.

As for the rest, they are colleagues who are fun.

Absolutely no idea how to make friends now.

Alone.