Sunday, April 24, 2022

Options

Option 1
Continue applying for 2-bedroom HDB BTOs and we shall see how it goes. The plus side of it is that I know for a fact that I can completely pay of 100% of the apartment within 5 years of living in it. Then after that we shall see how it goes. 

or

Option 2 -
Start saving up now and wait until I'm 40 years old to buy a 3-bedroom HDB resale. The plus side is that I will be able for renovate it into my dream house. The down side is that I know that I will be paying off for the apartment for a long time but at least, I feel secure enough that I can afford it. 


And that is what has been bugging me ever since my 35th birthday. It's a huge step forward that I just kept replaying it over and over in my head without making any sense to myself and then I get annoyed at myself. Adulting is scaring me. Surprisingly, I'm frustrated at myself for not being decisive and confident in making this decision.

In Shaa' Allah, HE will lead me to the correct choice.

Sunday, April 17, 2022

Ticking things off

Received my performance bonus. I am truly grateful for the extra amount and was happily able to check off most of the things that I have been targeting since the start of this year.
  • GMMTV BL Plush Dolls (6 dolls) - $208.43
  • Marvel Comics: X of Swords - $104.72
  • Marvel Comics: X-Men, Hellfire Gala - $104.72
  • COACH Hitch Backpack with Trompe L'oeil - $1,295.00
  • Three's A Crowd Cafe, Ondeh Cookies (15 bottles) - $330.00
Though after getting them, I felt like I overspent but at the same time, it was worth it. I still have a few things on my list that I want. It's not really a need right now but I foresee myself needing these things a couple of months down the road.

I have a few more things to type down but I can't seem to organize my thoughts properly. Basically it's just more things about work and being an adult. And since it's fasting month, I missed going to the gym. I missed sweating it out and just spending that 2 hours escaping from my reality.

I'm constantly searching for ways to run away from my reality...

In Shaa' Allah, everything will be okay.