"You said goodbye and I said hello..."
How can I not get jealous? How can I not get pissed? How can I not get confused? How can I not feel all these weird and ridiculous emotions coming up to me at one shot?
If you were being put in my situation and the way you handle it is completely different that how I handle it, then I will truly respect you and accept your decision with my head held high.
Then I realise one thing that sort of help me to ease the emotions. I came to the realization that it's just words and nothing more. No physical contacts. It's more towards hidden words. Nothing more than just a genuine expression of concern. Like they say, action speaks louder than words. So far, all you have are words and more words. Nothing more, nothing less. I initiated for a physical but typical of you, only words are all that you can give me. Surprisingly I also realise the fact that it almost comes down to nearly impossible to get physical with you, with all the rules and regulations and what-nots that comes along with it.
As much as I miss the good old days, I know that it can never be that way. I completely understand how you feel now. It's just that it is still puzzling to me that the saliva that you spit out a few months ago, why are you in such a rush to lick it back?
I'll never ever get a direct answer from you, that's for sure. For now, I'm going to try my best living my life as if I have never met you at all. Damn, it sure is fucking hard. That's life, it sure screws me up pretty badly.
PS: I'm thankful for now.
