Hendak Seribu Daya, Tak Hendak Seribu Dalih (Malay) - "If you are willing, you can do a thousand things, if you are unwilling, you can come up with a thousand excuses."
I need to work harder on myself. The only thing that I did well is taking care of skin and keeping myself entertain. I have gained weight and my mental health is not here, not there, and my emotional stability is questionable at best. I mean I have not had a breakdown yet so far this year but I have had a couple of close calls. And I just distract myself with stupid things to avoid breaking down.
Skin
Ever since I started using Shiseido since July 2023, it is pretty much my go-to brand for my facial care. My skin is much healthier and more lively. It doesn't look as dull as it used to be. The only problem is that it is too expensive. I need to simplify the steps. I mean, the things I listed below can last me for at least 3-4 months but to spend more than $3,000 per year on facial products is too much.
- Refreshing Cleansing Sheets (30 sheets) - $35
- Clarifying Cleansing Foam (125ml) - $62
- EUDERMINE Activating Essence (145ml) - $69
- ULTIMUNE Power Infusing Serum (75ml) - $238
- WHITE LUCENT Illuminating Micro-Spot Serum (50ml) - $220
- WHITE LUCENT Anti-Dark Circles Eye Cream (15ml) - $85
- FUTURE SOLUTION LX Total Regenerating Cream (50ml) - $450
- WHITE LUCENT Power Brightening Mask (6 sheets) - $105
Weight
I have stopped going to the gym since September 2024. With this current job, starting work at 10.30am, I thought I would have the motivation to work out first before starting work. The intention was there but physically, my body valued my sleep more than working out. Honestly, sleeping at 1am then waking up at 6am for Fajr then going back to sleep and waking up around 8.30am, feels so good. So good that I have gained a lot of weight. And it's so obvious that my face has gotten rounder, my stomach has gotten rounder and my ass has gotten rounder too.
I had just signed up for HomeGroundGym, which is $78 per month for a period of 18 months. And that is so much cheaper than what I used to pay for Virgin Active - $190 per month. It's June now, so I got until November to prepare my December body for my Bangkok birthday trip. I've signed up for a package deal with a trainer as well. 30 sessions, 2 sessions per week and I have already had my first session on last Monday. The trainer was nice enough to stretch the first session to almost 2 hours long, just going through with me the exercises and helping me with the apps to keep track of my calories and steps as well.
I will lose weight and achieve my ideal weight of 63kg by December 2025.
Monthly Goals
I did better than last year. I have achieved 5 out of my 12 goals. Last year, it was only 3.5 out of 12 goals.
- January - Pay back credit card debt. ✔️
- February - Pay back credit card debt & set aside for Hari Raya. ✔️
- March - Pay back credit card debt & set aside for Hari Raya. ✔️
- April -
Buy Bangkok flight ticket & book hotel for December.Pay back credit card debt. ✔️ - May - Pay back credit card debt. ✔️
- June -
Pay credit card debt.Buy Bangkok flight ticket & book hotel for December. - July - Pay back credit card debt.
- August - Pay back credit card debt.
- September - Pay back credit card debt.
- October - Pay back credit card debt & book Bangkok activities.
- November - Pay back credit card debt.
- December - 1 week birthday trip to Bangkok.
I need to be stricter on myself. I keep pushing my budget to the last cent then kept reshuffling my finances to ensure that everything is in place. It's annoying.
In Shaa' Allah, I will achieve my targets.
