It's not as if I'm saying that I'm unhappy about the whole situation, it just so happen that i am having a rather screw up phase that I, myself am trying my best to cope with. I'm not asking you to understand me at all. Why should you even bother trying to understand me when I can't even understand myself at all. Honestly speaking, I'm not judging you at all so don't you dare judge me. I'm trying my best to be oblivious to my surroundings to just avoid getting hurt over and over again. You do not know what I'm going through right now and I absolutely have no idea what you are going through right now. And trust me when I say, I, seriously have no intention of wanting to know what you are going through at all. I'm not concern with you so why should you be concern with me right? I'm not being heartless but I'm just being practical. It's easier to be practical minus all the pretense, stripped of all the layering. Just being honest to yourself and putting yourself first. I got to be selfish right? In the end I'm living my own life, it's not like you are living my life at all. No matter how screw up all my decisions are, at least I'm taking full responsibilities for them. I'm not asking you for permission and it's not as if I'm bothering your life right? If you want to be there for me, I'm not stopping you and if I'm not there for you, don't be mad at me. I never promise that I'll be there for you in the first place at all. Don't take it to heart, I'm trying my best to be as insensitive as I can be. It's for my own best. You broke my heart, it wasn't the other way round. I volunteered to be friends with you. What happened between us was in the past so why are you still raking in it? I've moved on with my life but subconciously you are still there at the back of my head. Come on, both of us are adults. I have my own life and you have yours. So just do me this small little favour please. You stay on your side of the road while I stay on my side. Pretty please.
PS: It's not what you think it is...
