I guess it has come to the point where I'm beginning to feel out of place with my group of friends.
On one side, all of them are couples and it's all about married life. I just ended up sitting there playing games with their kids while they have conversation about whatever it is that they are talking about.
On another side, I no longer am concern about their progression in life anymore. Like I'm happy with whatever it is that they are doing but honestly, it gets tiring listening to them complaining about everything and anything that they can. To them, it's sharing but I just get bored and uninterested in the whole conversation.
- I like drawing and coloring. I wish I can go for these classes with a friend.
- I like watching Korean drama. I wish I can talk about the dramas that I had watched with a friend.
- I like watching BL shows. I wish I can talk about the Thai, Japanese, Chinese, and Korean BL shows with a friend.
- I like listening to Korean songs. I wish I can talk about Kpop artistes and songs with a friend.
- I like going to the gym to clear my mind. I wish I can go to the gym with a friend.
- I like reading Marvel comics. I wish I can talk about the different superheroes group with a friend.
- I like looking at new cafes and reading their reviews. I wish I can go to these cafes to try out the food with a friend.
I wish I have a friend with similar interest with me because as much as I love to be alone, I can feel the loneliness creeping in.
And it's affecting my mental health...
In Shaa' Allah, I will be fine.
