So, I just bought myself a Blackberry Bold 9700 Onyx. The only issue that I'm having is that I still have no freaking idea on how to use it at all. I really need to go for tutorials, if there's just a thing, on how to use a Blackberry.


I just found out an odd piece of news. Honestly speaking, I have no idea on how to re-act when I first heard it. I wanted to jump for joy, cry, scream, run around, break glasses or other things that I wanted to do but knowing fully well that I'm physically incapable of. In the end, I ran to my bathroom and just started crying till my eyes got swollen. Anyway, the news is that I can confirm go to NAFA next year. My dad can pay for it. So now, I got another one more year to prepare my portfolio. The only issue is that I have no idea where to start.


Anyway, to a rather random topic. Have you ever imagined doing it with someone who is like physically perfect in terms of his physique. I mean that's the thing, I can't remember when was the last time I came to close contact with someone whom I honestly think has a freaking hot bod. It was like freaking orgasm being able to actually come into close physical contact with someone who has an effing hot bod. Gorgeous chest, firm biceps, tight washboard abs, cute bubble butt & a hell of a hose! Even though the face was rather average, what's the point of doing a double bagger right? OMEG!!! I could just have orgasm thinking of that body again. Haiz...





Anyway, I think I'm going to be fine. It was nice of you to ask.

PS: Need to be more discipline...

No, off course I'm not okay.

I know what you said is

totally right but honestly speaking, how

do I go about fighting it.

It's a fact that in that

whole stretch of period, I never

ever did fight it at all.

I know myself, I am never

the one to lead.

I am and will always be

the one that is behind the leader.

I am always the

second in command.

I have my own theory about

being the second in command.

I'll tell you one fine day, I

obviously can't type it down

here, people have a tendency

to ask.

Furthermore, I never

believe it fighting, it never gets

you anywhere at all.

To top it off, I know it's weird

but I believe in the power and

miracles of prayers.

I know it's wrong but I honestly

don't mind if people were to step

on my head over and over again

because I'm a true blue firm

believer in Karma and I honestly

and truly pray to God that Karma

would seriously bite them in their

asses.

Trust me when I say that I'll be there

to laugh at them when it truly

happens to them.

You know that I will always have

your back but trust me when I

say that you don't have to worry

about it.

You already have enough to worry

about.

I'll find my own way in life even if

it would take me to my deathbed.

I'm going to be ok.

Thank you for worrying about me.

I am taking my own sweet time to

figure out my life.

I am in no rush.

I got no deadline.

I know it's wrong but hell, I want to be

happy with what I'm doing that's why

I am where I'm at right now.

I understand that your intention is

good but honestly speaking, just let

me worry about myself.

At times, I honestly can't be bothered

about my life but that's me.

One more thing that you make me realise,

you can't make everybody happy.

Bottomline, just make sure that

you're happy with where you are

in your life right now.

Truthfully speaking, I am not really

fully happy with where I am right now

but I'm just trying my best to make do

what is being thrown to me.

I can no longer waste my time on

breaking down every now and then.

I got to either fake my way through

it all or just become hollow, void of all

emotions.

Either way is much more easier than

breaking down.

Just to tell you, I'm almost on the

brink of insanity but my fakeness

or my hollowness, either one of

them is keeping me sane.

Just like what you said, ignorance

could honestly be a blessing.

But having been very observant for a

better part of your life, it is honestly

quite hard to be ignorant.

PS: Thank you, CW