I know that I am an insecure person but usually it's because of my own thoughts. This time round however, I am quite affected by the people around me - those that are not working in the government sector.
We have all reached the point in life where we meet up with friends and talk about our work life, asking each other for advice about whatever situations that we are currently facing. I am truly grateful that most of my friends kept telling me that I am capable of doing more than what I am doing at my current job and that I should strive for more. It is encouraging but sometimes it gets annoying because it confuses me. Like I am at the stage of my life that my mental health and happiness takes priority over my personal goals and ambitions.
I don't love my job and I don't hate my job.
I have 44 days of leaves and offs this year. There's performance, mid-year and end of year bonuses. There will always be a yearly increment. I can't get fired unless I fuck it up real bad. The chances of me jumping around to different government agencies to explore without having to worry of getting fired is quite a good plus point. I guess my biggest concern is work security. Now that I've gotten emplaced, I don't have to worry about my job at all. Honestly, right now my job is not stressing me out that much. I have a work-life balance. Yes, the promotion may be quite slow but I guess I'm okay with it. At the end of the day, being a risk-taker and being ambitious will only stresses me out - I'm perfectly fine moving slowly, as long as I'm moving forward.
In Shaa' Allah, everything will be fine.
