Je suis amoureux de toi...

For every beginning, there's always an end.

It's just that, you'll never know when the end would come. It could be an hour from now, a year from now or maybe in ten years' time. The last time, I was at a funeral, was for my late paternal grandfather. That was more than ten years ago. I could barely remember what really happened.

Now that I'm older, I experienced the true meaning of losing your own flesh and blood. I experienced the loss of a woman that was the pillar of my mom's family.

A woman that never once did complained.
She, alone, takes care of 9 children.
She, alone, experienced the pain of losing her firstborn daughter at childbirth.
She, alone, saw her father, married twice, after her birthmom.
She, alone, saw her sons, going in and out of prison.
She, alone, experienced her daughter-in-law, kicking her out of her eldest son's house.
She, alone, saw one of her sons, going senile in front of her.
She, alone, saw one of her sons, taking drugs in front of her.
She, alone, saw one of her sons, steal from her.
She, alone, saw her sisters, battling cancer.
She, alone, experienced the pain of battling breast cancer.
She, alone, saw the love of her life, her own husband, going senile and deaf in front of her own two eyes.
She, alone, handled all her problems.

She refused to be a burden to any of her children or grandchildren, until her dying breath. Even when she could barely talk, she insisted to stay by her husband's side. Refusing to even stay at my house. Insisting that if we were to take care of her, who would take care of him.



I'm grateful that she was surrounded by people that truly love her, the moment that GOD decided for her to come back to HIM. Honestly speaking, the day that she passed away, it rained heavily and after that, out came the rainbow. A true blessing in disguise. I'm so thankful for everything that she has done to my mom and my mom's siblings. My grandmother was an excellent wife, mother, grandmother and above all else, she was a real women.

PS: Al-fateha to my arwah nenek. ♥